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The Personal Touch

poems by

Joe Solomon


Copyright 2011 Joe Solomon


Smashwords Edition


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Grateful acknowledgement is made for permission to quote extracts from Robin Askew’s appreciation of Joe Solomon in Venue magazine’s 1998 Honours List.



Table of Contents

Section1
A Profession in Recession : Murdered Darlings : Perfect Crime, Perfect Time : Admin. Hero : Aunt Jane : Dedicated to Sooty – A Cat I Know : Friend of the Family : Britain makes a Stand : Case History
Section2
Applications are Invited : Dolly : Gloucester Road Beggars : Oh, the Bother :
Heart Trouble : Long Past Bedtime : Lost and Found : Mad Hatters : Nelson Street Blues
Section3
Never Rose : News-Speak : No Sexism Please, we’re British : No Special Mention : Numbers : Patient’s Lounge, Smoker’s Only : Whinging with Bravado : Question-Time with a Great Man : Respect
Section4
Rhyme, Gentlemen, Please : Slip of the Tongue : The Signs : So Many Deadlines to Meet : The Beyond-a-Joke Comedy Club : The Clock and the Calendar : The Cosy Tea Shop : The Personal Touch : The Poisoning of Life
Section5
The Rule Book : The Silly Things : Timely Warning : Transcendence : What Friends are For : When Sleep Won’t Come : Worst Scenario Man : Young Grey, Old Grey
Section6
A Death Row Guard Wrote a Poem : Pen Friendship : Have a Good Day : A Dead Man’s Death : Stupid Girl : A Tale of Two Mysteries : I’m Getting Out : Safety First : Matters of Judgement
About the Author



Section 1
A Profession in Recession

A population of prickly poets,
A babble of bad-tempered bards.
The loving cup cracked down the middle,
If we drank we would swallow the shards.

The Festival Founders are funding,
The scribes search for scapegoats to scrag.
What once was a climb to Parnassus
Is a fight for a perch on a crag.





Murdered Darlings

A well-turned phrase that didn't fit,
A not-quite-relevant shaft of wit,
A story told in rambling style,
Lie in my Murdered Darlings File.

A very subtle Latin pun,
Some Anglo-Saxon overdone –
It all filled my fancy for a while,
Now it fills my Murdered Darlings File.

Characters written out of plots,
Orgies cut to a line of dots,
Schmaltz to out-sugar Tate and Lyle –
There's a line for my Murdered Darlings File!





Perfect Crime, Perfect Time

Our hands were clasped together
And our two hearts beat as one
And I softly asked her whether
I'd be hers till life was done.
"Of all the times to ask me,
"Your reason must have gone!
"I can't make a decision, Coronation Street is on."

View on, she much prefers to
Let her view in her own juice!
No girl this to bring my cares to,
No, I'd better turn recluse
"Grant refuge, Father Abbot,
And the cowl I'll gladly don.”
“What must I vow?"
"You don't vow now,
The Street is coming on!"

That made me anti-social,
Now I housebreak, wreck and steal.
Make crime pay? Lots can't, but Joe shall –
Here's my plan, if you won't squeal.
Eliminate detection is the method banked upon.
They ignore suspicious noises once the Street has been switched on.





Admin. Hero

On hearing that a whole day's programmes on BBC Radio 3 were to be devoted to Sir William Glock, former Controller of music. He was described as "not a composer, not an artist, but an administrator". As ‘Administrator’ happened to be my job title, too...

The treasurer’s speech gets approving looks –
It was me who stayed up all night with the books.
I'm the backroom toiler you never see –
Will my day ever come on Radio 3?

The director serves the Open Day wine,
But who made sure it arrived on time?
There's not much left when he comes to me.
Will my day ever come on Radio 3?

I suggest new ventures, he says they'd fail,
But he took up one and it blazed a trail.
The day has now come for his MBE.
Will my day ever come on Radio 3?





Aunt Jane

Your Aunt Laura sends letters without any stamps,
Uncle Jack snuggles spoons out of holiday camps,
But Aunt Jane, she must never be mentioned aloud –
That subject's taboo, so the family vowed.

Aunt May worships her cats, guests must sit on the floor.
Uncle Ben, a recluse, never answers the door.
But some things, you will learn, are much better passed by –
Of Aunt Jane we don't speak, even I don't know why.





Dedicated to Sooty – A Cat I Know

This cat has an appetite nothing can quell –
He'll eat Cat-o-Meat, Dog-o-Meat, carpets as well,
And we can't hear him coming, he's eaten his bell.
Sooty is eating the house!

The carpet once eaten, he mewed for some more.
We hid every carpet, but he gobbled the floor –
And the house is so draughty since he ate the front door!
Sooty is eating the house!

The Town Planning Department's beginning to fret,
We called in a joiner, who fled to Tibet,
And he's broken the heart of our long-suffering vet –
Sooty is eating the house!

Before his voracity everything falls,
Including the roof when he's eaten the walls –
Before Sooty came, these were fine stately halls.
Sooty is eating the house!

His diet is normal now - fish-tails and such,
But we all have to bed down in Sooty's wee hutch...
... 'Cos Sooty has EATEN the house!





Friend of the Family

I saw a girl, her eyes were blue,
I said, "May I walk home with you?"

Her father said, "Do you play chess?"
And soon my king was in distress.

She said, "That game's for dull old men!"
But he said, "You must come again."

So three nights on, we had a game,
She brought us tea, said, "Glad you came.

"Poor Daddy's had a heavy day,
"It's nice he's got someone to play."

She always brought it in at eight,
Till one night she came home quite late

With news of tennis-club to tell.
I asked, "Could I join that as well?"

"Now that's a subject best to broach
"With my fiancé, who's the coach.

"The wedding is to be in June.
"You'll get an invitation soon."

I saw a girl, her eyes were grey,
I let her pass upon her way
.





Britain Makes a Stand (To Muhammad al-Massari)

Freedom of speech
Is a value we preach
To régimes that are less than enlightened.

Refugees from Iraq
We would never send back
Into chains that are constantly tightened.

When they write of such shame,
We will honour their name –
They ensure that dark deeds are not whitened.

But we get rid of rowdies
Who upset ruling Saudis –
Yes, business is business, we're frightened.





Case History

The solicitor couldn't see him that day –
He wasn't an emergency.

The social worker couldn't see him that day –
He wasn't at risk.

The doctor couldn't see him that day –
He wasn't a priority category.

So he went out and made a priority, at risk emergency of himself.
That's how he comes to be on this ward.
He's what we professionals term manipulative.





Section 2
Applications Are Invited

1997 –Additional immigration officials were required when the Tory
Asylum Act brought in a fast-track system to distinguish
between "genuine" and "bogus" refugees.

We are looking for very special communication skills
In a sensitive area of the public service
Often dealing with highly agitated people
Whose command of English is slight,
But with whom dialogue must be established.

Could you gain their confidence,
Be the sort of' good listener
Who can pick up on inconsistencies
Without giving personal offence?

You'd be working with the latest in identity-checking equipment,
And using our firm but fair Departmental guidelines,
But, in the end, what must count is your judgment
And the strength of mind
To disregard
Hysterical outbursts.





Dolly

Till she died, the oldest of my friends,
took me to infants’ school when she worked as a maid for my mum,
collected me at half-past-three along with the headmistress’ complaints.
“But she is very strict,” my mum would be reminded.

Dolly knew all about strictness, past employers had guaranteed that –
fire blazing and hearth spotless by seven or else no breakfast;
wages docked for a broken saucer;
days off at Madam’s discretion.
But better than the life at home,
the step-mother, the beatings.

By the time she came to us, she had a place of her own,
a room, rather, and paying part of her rent in housework,
the day-job running into the night-job.

Just occasionally, there was time and money for the music-hall,
a seat in the gods.
Next day we’d get a laugh-by-laugh commentary on the antics of Dave Willis.
“He’s so daft! He’s lucky to be daft and get paid for it.
And we’re lucky to have him to laugh at.”
She had no idea that someone could be professionally daft.
Just as well – would have killed the enchantment.

The music-hall became bingo (which she never took to),
Dolly became a pensioner, with the nearest yet to a place of her own –
a Council flat.
She got a cat for company
and, when she realised that robberies were rife, a dog to protect her
with its barking.
She took in another cat, a stray – “Before someone sells it to the labs.
It’s awful what they do to the poor beasts!”
A neighbour, about to enter an old folks’ home,
couldn’t bear to have her dog put down.
Dolly to the rescue, refusing payment –“Get away, five
can live as cheaply as four!”

When Dolly herself had to go that way, the Council people
must have rounded up the animals,
but she said, “No, I’ve still got them. They’re out playing in the garden.

You’ll see them crowding at the window soon. They always know
when it’s teatime.
My dad keeps an eye on them. He’s got a job as the gardener here.”
Then she asked, “How’s your mum? All right?”
“Oh – don’t you remember? – she died many years ago.”
“No she never!” Dolly dismissed this delusion of mine.
That exchange marked every visit
till at last I replied “Oh she’s fine thank you.”
Once, I added, “She was asking for you” and wondered at myself.

I was her one visitor, and only on holidays,
for I had moved to a far-off town.
I would ring the home before I called…till
“Oh – I’m sorry to say Dolly is no longer with us.”
I’d missed her funeral by ten days.
I took flowers to the crematorium,
but there was no plaque or stone,
no place that was hers.

In the crematorium office, they said I could leave them
in the Chapel of Remembrance
for one week only, then they’d be removed.
Yes, I was told, there had been some family at the funeral.
No, there had been no mention of a plaque.
They had no knowledge of the family,
I would have to ask the undertakers.
They gave a telephone number.

On which I explained that the deceased had been the oldest of my friends
and I would be glad to contribute to any memorial planned.

All they could do was forward a letter –
to which there was no reply.
Perhaps they took it the wrong way.

So that was Dolly.
Homes kept clean and running smoothly,
small kindnesses
and, when she could, larger ones
are not the stuff of obituaries.
This poem is the best I can do for Dolly.





Gloucester Road Beggars

1 – Mixed Reactions

There are poor folk who are busking,
poor folk who are juggling,
but mostly they are begging
outside shops in Gloucester Road.

There are people who are giving,
some crouch beside them, talking,
but mostly they are passing
as they shop in Gloucester Road.

Some think about them, caring.
Some think about them, blaming.
But it’s mostly mental shrugging
when they think of Gloucester Road.

Charities acting locally,
the “czar” who’s acting nationally
bring no piece of the action for most on Gloucester Road.



2 – Mixed Feelings

When a beggar sits in the wind and rain
and something inside me feels the pain,
I give.

When this beggar sits in the wind and rain
and I think he’s using the weather for gain,
I pass.

When a beggar asks ”Can you spare a fag?”
and I think how I feel without a drag,
I give.

When this beggar asks “Can you spare a fag?”
and I feel it as a wearisome nag,
I pass.

When I’m begged the price of a cup of tea
and I think but for luck this could have been me,
give? pass?





Oh, The Bother!

Oh, the bother of coins caked in dirt!
A waste to bin them,
a pest to scour them,
a menace to pass around,
food handlers at risk,
who, one way or another, are all of us!

I know what I'll do –
I'll keep them in a special bag and give them to beggars.
They'll be glad of them.

Bother is – beggars handle food.
But they're disease-prone,
lucky if they live till forty.
What’s a filthy coin or two in that sad situation?

Bother is – the beggars will buy food in shops,
food handlers at risk.
Oh, the bother of beggars!





Heart trouble

All the time he's brewing tea,
Old Rodney talks.
I say "Yes" or "Oh" or "Really"
As Rodney, holding the unfilled kettle,
Says the things he always says.

How hard he finds the shopping,
How hard he finds the garden,
How hard he finds the neighbours.
The ticker trouble doesn't help,
And, of course, the good old days have gone forever.

I begin to think my cup of tea has gone forever.
When it comes, I've no time to drink it.
"I ramble on so much," he says.
"I forget what I'm doing.
"I'm sorry."

I say, "Oh, not at all.
"It isn't that.
"I'm sorry that I have to rush.
It's just that I can't stop tonight.
"I've such a lot to do at home."

I put it that way.
It's kinder that way.
In fact, I'm having some friends round.
They're lively, trendy, theatre-going types.
I would invite him, but he'd feel so out of it.

"Oh well," he says, "I mustn't keep you.
"It's good of you to spare the time.
"Don't work too hard."
Poor Rodney, chattering all the way to the gate!
If I didn't drop in, he'd have nobody.

He could be more outgoing, of course.
I've told him he should go to the village hall
and make some friends there.
They have a varied programme to suit all ages,
something for everyone –
It's obvious from their notice-board.
He says his ticker trouble rules that out.

Damn! I've left my library book at Rodney's.
No hurry for it, I won't be starting it tonight,
not with friends coming.
But it would be just like him to bring it over,
Arriving just when they're arriving.

Oh, I'd better dash back.
There's someone in there with him,
for, through the door, I hear him talking
Of the shopping and the garden and the neighbours,
And the ticker trouble and the good old days.
So! He has a friend I've not been told of.

I ring, I explain, I apologise.
"Oh, that's all right," he says. "Come in.
"I would have brought it round, you know.
''Still, no harm done,
"Cos this time there's a pot of tea just freshly made.
"It'll revive you for the double journey."

"Well – O.K. then – I will.
"Just a quick one, though. Thanks."
He shows me into the room.
I smile pleasantly, I'm about to be introduced to someone.
But there's no one.





Long Past Bedtime

I must stay awake, but Sleep is on the warpath,
pressing behind my eyes, getting abusive –
“Hey you, you unmade bed!
Make yourself! Tidy yourself! Give me stretching room!”

I try reasoning –
“You know how it is, Sleep.
One of these frantic days, deadlines crowding.”

“Crowd them somewhere else, not strewn all over my bed!
Such shoddy service!”

I try assertion –
“Now look here, sleep was made for people, people weren’t made for sleep.
I’ll sleep when I’m – hey, go easy on my eyes!
If once they close – ”
They do.
Sleep heaves the clutter off his bed.
His snores drown out this silly poem.





Lost and Found

The woman's carrier-bag was over-full and over-tilted,
Looped on her wrist as she unlocked the boot of her car
I saw a small green object tumble out as I approached –
A scrap of paper? A fragment of wrapping?
No, seen more closely, more like a glove.
I said, "Excuse me, I think you've dropped a glove or something"
And felt, for once, the joy of a simple kindness –
No priorities to balance,
No problematic outcomes to give me pause.
"Thank you," she said,
"I know."





Mad Hatters

Conservative headgear is never out of the news:
They're throwing their hats in the ring,
They're clamping their caps on community charges.
A long-forgotten advert, comes back to me –
"If you want to get ahead, get a hat. Ask your girlfriend."

They don't make ads. like that anymore.
And, if they ask anyone, it's Saatchi & Saatchi.





Nelson Street Blues

(Nelson Street is the location of a well-known
and well-disliked Bristol Job Centre.)

The job display boards are very high,
The print on the cards is very pale.
"Miscellaneous" is the highest and palest of all –
I've a cataract forming and I'm not very tall.

"The. Job Centre staff will be pleased to help."
When I asked for their help, they were very nice.
But none of those jobs was quite my line
And 1 felt I was wasting the government's time.

You're not supposed to remove the cards,
But I sometimes do, though, again, in vain.
I can barely reach the topmost group,
When I put them back they sadly droop.

"So you're the bugger who mucks them about!"
He was seventy-two outraged inches in height
So that's why I took a hasty departure
And forgot to take my Job Seekers' Charter.





Section 3
Never Rose

It's fifty years ago today since I asked Rose to be my wife –
"I will not rise from bended knee
"Till you consent to marry me!"
But Rose refused to marry me, and I've been kneeling all my life.
I thought at first she might relent, but years have passed, my hope recedes.
New people came and placed a screen
To hide me here, alone, unseen,
Except when sympathisers bring the little food a lover needs.

But time's a burden when unused, and fifty years have wearied me.
Oppressed by joyless, endless wait,
I now intend to change my state –
Though old and rigid, I will move and kneel upon the other knee.





News-Speak

A level playing field
Is the bottom line
Though, having said that,
Pressure from the grass roots
Is pushing the nitty-gritty
Higher up on the agenda
And a question mark is hanging over
The food mountain
And the summit negotiations.
In a word,

HELP!





No Sexism Please We're British

(1993) DAVID HUNT the Employment Minister, also now has responsibility for
Women's Issues, so he is in effect Britain's first Minister for Women.

What an achievement! What a breakthrough!
And yet hardly noticed.
It was done so quietly,
No fussing, no bragging –
The creation of a Minister for Women.

It's true that Labour already had a Shadow Minister,
Waiting for someone to shadow.
But Conservative substance puts shadows in the shade ...
.. and silly reporters in their place,

"Isn't it odd" asked one, "to be a male Minister for Women?"
To which he replied "I consider that a sexist question."
Hear, hear! What matters is to get the right man for the job.





No Special Mention

Pink roses on black china made it an inviting little jampot,
though we’d now passed on to cakes and trifles.
The lid had come to rest by me, so I replaced it.
My eyes, less fickle than my appetite, lingered there
And Beatrice, beside me, seemed to notice, for she said
“I’ve always liked it, too.
I tried to paint it as a still-life for school homework.
It wasn’t a good choice.
I was only eight and didn’t know what to do with black,
How to blend it out of other colours.
So it got no special mention, no display on the classroom wall.”
“But did you keep it?” I asked.
“Oh we never got to keep them, the school kept them.”

But not, I supposed, for long,
Not even the mentioned and displayed, still less…
Yet here the jampot and its artist were, seventy years on,
and people with her round a tea-table,
though different people and the table was her son’s.
And I don’t know why I felt such wonder at what was – really – nothing wonderful.





Numbers

“When you’re forty, going grey, what you worry about are numbers.”
Overheard as I passed two men in the street, barely into their twenties.
And when you’re sixty, going bald, what do you worry about?
A wig can replace lost hair,
what can replace lost chances?

I write another silly poem,
I hope another silly hope.
I never had much head for numbers.





Patients' Lounge. Smokers Only. Bristol Royal Infirmary

Foam peeling from chairs,
Moist nicotine stains on the walls,
Cell-like room,

Grimy green carpet, greasy black blotches,
A large ash-container holds the door ever open,
But there are no curious stares –

People passing through the corridor avert their eyes,
As from noisome substances.

A graffiti artist has painted a green face
Wide green eyes, sad and calm,
Taking doom steadily.

A room designed to make you ashamed to be in it.
And yet when two or three are in it,
They talk, they joke
And they dare to laugh.





Whinging with Bravado

Thank you, you owners of smoke-free zones,
heartfelt, from a smoker.





Question-Time with a Great Man

He was welcomed by the Mayor,
Rescheduling her diary to come and say
How glad the city was
That he should visit.

The Chairman next:
How honoured the meeting was
To host his visit –
There was none who saw more clearly
The crisis of the planet,
The need for a new agenda
To recognize our common future.

The great man gave Bristol two hours.
His talk took up the first.
He spoke of war and poverty and power politics
In a world that had become our global neighbourhood,
With no safe distance between winners and losers.
If without vision the people perish,
That must now mean all the people,
The human species.

Then an hour of trenchant answers to our questions
On every kind of abuse of power
Save one.
I was the oddball who asked about animals –
Were they to have a new agenda
Or stay caged and trapped,
Business-as-usual,
As of old?

Via the Chair,
The speaker declined to respond.
Of course, with human survival his burning concern,
He couldn't very well.
And, in the din of the final applause,
No one imagined
A happier planet
Without the human species.





Respect

Jim was a leader born,
Outfought, outshone them all,
Became a prefect, became Head Boy,
Admired, respected even...

Except by Nick,
A ne'er-do-well –
Could never answer questions,
But presumed to question answers.

Jim got submission out of Nick,
But no respect, no liking either.
No friends of Nick could be friends of Jim,
So Nick had none.

But Jim outgrew all that,
Became mature and wise, appointed to the Bench,
Where the public good imposed sad duties sometimes...
Nick showed no emotion, no respect.

Section 4
Rhyme, Gentlemen, Please

Dedicated to 'The Silent Peach' – a mysteriously named pub.

A peach can never make a speech,
It cannot teach,
It cannot preach,
In either a whisper or a screech.
Neither bass nor alto can it reach.
This applies to all and each
Of every single blessed peach,
So, Mr Landlord, I beseech:
Why specify a silent peach?





Slip of the Tongue

A new epoch
Was ushered in
When Dr. Bradsby-Carr
Became our Principal
And made his distinctive mark
On every aspect of the College life.
He set the highest standards
For himself
And others....

....As you can see here in the Library.
Those notices your eyes are drawn to
Wherever you look
Are in his own beautiful script.

"No smoking,
"No food or drink,
"No crisps, chocolate or chewing–gum
"In the Library."
He was a pioneer environmentalist.

"Make sure you wipe your feet,
"Make sure your hands are clean,
"No sweat-stains,
"No writing,
"No drawing
"In the books,
"No standing on the chairs to reach the shelves."
He has made the books and chairs in other libraries
Seem positively grimy.

"Warning to readers of the Great Comedies:
"No laughing aloud allowed."
His one regret
Was lack of funds
To segregate that section.

And, of course, this Library gives pride of place to
The Bradsby-Carr Complete Collected Quirks.





The Signs

'Respect the beauty of your park -
Leave no litter'
Said the notice by the daffodils.
'Respect the beauty of your park –
Dogs to be kept on the lead'.
Thus the sign
By the rose-bushes (scenting trouble).
And all along the paths
'Keep off the lawns and flower-beds'
Was the grand refrain.

Now,
The lawns are snowbound,
Flowers a memory,
Bushes bare.
But they never let
The snow obscure
The signs.





So Many Deadlines to Meet

Though my nephew, I hardly knew the boy,
A cheery, helpful kid when I visited,
Showed me the short cut to the station last time.
His ambition was to be a footballer, he said
“Good luck with that, then” was my farewell,
thinking “that won’t last.”

I was more prophetic than I knew –
He’ll never walk again.
A road crossed carelessly,
A car with no chance to brake.
He’ll need nursing care all his life.
I must change my will to help with that.

But this is a bad time to sort it out,
So much to do, so many deadlines to meet,
But next year, early next year.

April and still not done!
And now our local sanctuary that rescues animals needs rescue.
I’ll send a cheque now,
But they call especially for legacies.
Yes, I must make the changes this week.
Oh God, the diary is full!
So much to do, so many deadlines to meet.

From hospital I send for my lawyer
and hope he’ll come in time.
Always so many to meet... now only one.





The Beyond-A-Joke Comedy Club

1

If it had only been the one about the Jew and the money-spider,
I would have let it pass,
But when it came to the stinky Paki and the toilet-roll,
It was really too much,
So I spoke to him when he'd finished MC-ing the show.

"I couldn't agree more," he said. "I hate racist jokes,
"But I have to tell them, it's what they want,
"I do the warm-up for the others on the bill.
''It's the only way to make those meatheads laugh.

"I'd tone it down, of course, if there were any in the audience,
“But we never seem to get them here.

"Oh, Jewish yourself, are you?
"But how was I to know?"
"If you'd worn something distinctive...

“WHAT? No of course I don't mean that!"



2

I’m not surprised they booed you off,
What they want is a good laugh,
Not social satire,
Jokes about the dole, the Council Tax, all that depressing stuff.
Haven't you any Holocaust jokes?





The Clock and the Calendar

They say that time heals bereavement.
At 6 pm on Tuesdays we would meet.
Time will present me with 6 pm every Tuesday of my life.
The worst bereavement is to grieve
For the living.

(With a little help from someone who insists on being anonymous).





The Cosy Tea Shop

The Cosy Tea Shop in the square –
I book a window table there
Some folk say it’s just to spy,
But I love to see the world go by...
Well ..... the homely world that’s Peel-on-Sea.
Slow and sleepy and trouble-free.
Jo passes with a pile of books –
Improves her mind but not her looks!
Now her mum is stylish, though I’m afraid
That’s the skirt I gave to Christian Aid!
‘Fruit salad’s on? Yes please, I will.
‘It’s time my taste-buds had a thrill!
‘Complaints because it came from where?
‘Graffiti daubed around the square?
‘”Apartheid - flavour of the week.”?
‘Well, I call that appalling cheek!’
Here's something else to spoil the view
Those kids with hair of pink and blue.
No jobs indeed! No mind to try!
They give new meaning to do or dye!
Once seemed my Grant might go that way
But he joined the army and that may
Turn out to be a splendid plan –
They'll teach him skills, make him a man
'Was that a news flash being read?
‘An ambush leaving many dead?
'Well, the news from there is always grim ...
‘Oh no! It can’t be ... God, not him!

The Cosy Tea Shop in the square,
Nowadays I don’t go there.





The Personal Touch

There are cards to say congratulations,
Cards to give felicitations,
Cards for all life's celebrations –
Say it with a card.

And cards to say you love your mother
Cards to say you love your brother,
Cards to say we should love one another –
Love them with a card.

Cards admitting they're belated,
Cards regretting they're misdated,
All your lapses deprecated –
Do penance with a card.

The world of cards is always sunny,
The world of cards makes lots of money,
Lots of money being sunny –
Sell it with a card.





The Poisoning Of Life

In the beginning, there were three grown-up figures in my infant world
The one that had the name "Dad-dy",
The one that had the name "Mam-my",
And the one that had the name "Maur-een".

They were big and I was wee, that was the only difference then.
Then – "only the maid".
Maureen was only the maid.
Daddy, Mammy I belonged to,
Daddy, Mammy I obeyed.
But the maid obeyed those I belonged to.

That's how the poison got into me.
What about you?

Section 5
The Rule Book

Life is never black and white,
But indeterminate shades of grey,
Enlightened persons always say.
I’ll never get it right
If I think in black and white,
So I’m gathering all the wisdom I can
For my little grey book of the little grey thoughts of a little grey man.





The Silly Things
(The Kaddish is a Jewish prayer said
on the anniversary of a death.)

When I think of those I have lost,
I remember the silly things.

Olga and Leon used to say:
she married him for fame, he married her for money and both were disappointed.

My dad would say, of any coin picked up,
“It looks like one of mine.”
And after every bath,
“Now I’m the cleanest person in the house.”

My mum, testing my school French as she poured tea in a café, said,
“Passez-moi le lait, s’il vous plait.”
Before I could translate, an old man sharing our table
twinkled at us and laid the milk-jug by her cup.
She didn’t let me forget it.

When I went to scout camp, there was a P.S. to her letter:
“Passez-moi le lait, s’il vous plait.”

The Kaddish prayer is what I’m reciting;
the silly things are what I’m thinking.





Timely Warning
Read at a Poets Against Racism event, Bristol, July 1996

With the B and the C and the F words, he demented all the time,
This man who had seen much better days, a Bishop in his prime.
The rest of us in the admission ward remarked on the pain to his wife,
Who visited almost daily, bereavement without loss of life.

Said the charge–nurse, "She's blaming the hospital for teaching him how to
swear.

"She can't or won't see that he's bringing out what all through his life has
been there."

He yelled, when a black patient joined us, "That nigger – get him out of
here!"
To a Back Ward the Bishop was bundled, where none had a sensitive ear.

Tonight, it is only a poem, one of many to mark, this event,
But if we should ever be senile – what words will we use to dement?





Transcendence

It was a women-only vigil
An itinerant one,
A pilgrimage of protest to
Mosque and temple,
Synagogue and chapel,
High Church and Low.

They carried multi-defiant banners:
"A Woman for Pope"...
"And for Chief Rabbi"...
"A sex-change for God".
They were the Inter-Faith Sisters.

An onlooker asked,
"Can I be your sister, even though I'm an atheist?"
After much soul-searching, the answer came:
"You can be our half-sister,
"But you can't carry our banners."

She brought along one of her own:
"She doesn't exist".





What Friends Are For

Some say she drops her friends when they’re no more use to her,
But that’s ignorant talk –
Friendship portfolios must from time to time be rationalised,
Modernised,
Made leaner and fitter.





When Sleep Won't Come

I listen to all the sounds of night.
There's the tick of my clock and, less polite,
There comes from my stomach a curious gurgle.
Perhaps it's my supper that's made my tea curdle.

I wonder what sound it might produce
To swallow the clock with orange-juice?
A gurgling tick or a ticking gurgle?
And would it scare someone trying to burgle?

A line of research I can't explore –
That dirty great clock would just stick in my jaw.
A curse on its bulk and on its botches!
I hunger for elegant, slimline watches.

A lonely hearts plea next post shall catch:
"Slim, elegant lady with watch to match
Is sought by a poet kind and gentle
Whose motives are purely experimental."





Worst-scenario Man

Do I have to keep repeating
That all plugs and lights and heating
Must be double-checked before the show begins?
Have you allocated spaces
For guitar and cello cases?
We're not insured for bruises to the shins.

All these things I must take care of,
Must make everyone aware of,
It's the only way to organise and plan.
Someone has to be reliable,
Someone has to keep it viable,
Someone's got to be the worst-scenario man.

Tell you this – as sure as glue sticks,
There'll be trouble with acoustics.
Did you fail to see that curve along the wall?
I fear that once again, you
Have chosen the wrong venue –
Had it been me.... but must I do it all?

All these things I must beware of,
Must give everyone their share of,
Must foresee as many pitfalls as I can.
When the snags look insurmountable,
Someone has to look accountable,
Someone has to be the worst-scenario man.

Thus I'd bully and I'd beaver,
Till I fell sick with a fever,
And the worst of all scenarios began –
For my colleagues proved resilient,
What they did was hailed as brilliant,
And they did without the...





Young Grey, Old Grey

I have a problem with grey.
Grey surrounds me every day,
At work on grey areas, in my grey Department –
Grey man from the Ministry.
But....

Best teacher I ever had was called Miss Grey.
The lessons came to life, I stopped playing truant for a while.

My very first suit was grey.
I wore it to Bruce's birthday party...
Everyone said,” This isn't the Joe we know,
"No birthday cake for this boy!"

But they gave me some in the end. I got the piece with the silver-
wrapped half-crown in it.

The first real book I ever read was called "The Picture of Dorian
Grey",
I bought it after seeing the film.
I skipped over all the words I didn't know
Till I came to the exciting bits where folk got killed.

....Lots of problems go back to childhood, they say.





Section 6
A Death Row guard wrote a poem

to comfort a prisoner.
A doggerel poem
nothing original about it
...except that he wrote it.





Pen Friendship

“Even a letter of kind words that help comfort me in this place
would be most appreciated,”
Brian wrote in an article
smuggled out of Death Row.

But what could you say?

You could say you felt concern,
that you hoped he’d win his fight for justice.
You could say you were thinking of him,
that he was not alone.
No, you couldn’t say that.
He was alone.
You could say you didn’t know what else to say,
you’d never written a letter like this,
you were sorry it was so brief.

And then you post it off,
wondering what he can say.

He said, “Sometimes a simple letter can be a great relief in here.
I know how limited words are.
They can’t say how much it means to me to know there’s such love out there.”
And this tells you – though love is not the right word – that what you say doesn’t matter,
it’s the act of saying.

But there are still things you cannot say –
like “Have a good Christmas”
or “Happy New Year”
Perhaps say “This must be a sad time of year for you.”
Such a statement of the obvious.
Change to “I know this must be a sad time of year for you.”
That tells him you understand.
But you don’t understand
and it only rubs it in.
Better not to mention it?
But what does that tell him?
He replied, “You do not owe me any apologies for being slow in responding to me.
I myself am slow. Smile!”
And he drew beside “Smile!” two squiggles for eyes,
one for nose
and a wider one, with a loop, for the mouth.
A letter of kind words that help comfort you from that place.





Have a Good Day

Darling McClung said “Have a good day.”
Unnerving, that was, creepy.
Not the words, lots of people say that–
cashiers, receptionists, canvassers.

But coming from the secretary to
the defence attorney of
my pen-friend on Death Row, who was having a last day…

Unless there was truth in the rumour I’d heard –

a moratorium on executions till after the Presidential Election.
Callers never got to speak to the attorney,
everything went through Darling McClung.

“The moratorium? That only applies to new execution dates,
not those already fixed.
So unless something extraordinary happens,
Brian Roberson will die at six o’clock.
Anything else I can help with? Sure? Get back to me if there is.
Have a good day.”

How could she?
But how could I, ringing Leon when his wife had died,
how could I have closed
with the routine
“Give my regards to Olga”?





A Dead Man’s Death (1968)

The fun will soon be over, but then so will the strife,
And a contradiction of faces is my only mark in life:
In different people’s memories is left a different face–
A friend, a foe, an oddity, a family disgrace.

Cocooned in sin-lined gloves, my hand took all and never gave,
And even after penitence, there was nothing left to save.
It isn’t God in judgement that I fear most at last,
But the wounds of my ultimate victim, and these leave me aghast.

In a stinking moat I built for defence, my love and promise fell;
A slime-encrusted island formed – I think its name is Hell.





Stupid Girl

What did you do in the war, Daddy?
In the war? I and my comrades occupied Holland.
Was it dangerous?
Not as dangerous as some places, but it was a vital part of the war effort.
The Dutch were troublesome people.
Some of them even sheltered the Jews.

Who were the Jews?
What a question to ask at bedtime!
They don’t make a good bedtime story – unless you want nightmares!
Some other time I’ll tell you it all.
For now, let’s just say they had to be – oh – moved on.

My last big job, before the war took a bad turn for us,
was when we pounced upon a nest of them that had managed to hide
for two years in a cleverly concealed attic.
Not clever enough, though! You should have seen their faces
when we burst into that Jew-hole!

There was a girl who tried to fight us off with a large book she’d been writing in.
Pathetic! The pages all tumbled out on the floor.
Then she fell to pleading: “My diary…please let me take it, please.”
Stupid girl!

As if her diary could matter any more.

Note In fact, Anne Frank did not resist or plead, but the incident,
along with the S.S. man’s comment, seems to me to have a
kind of poetic truth.





A Tale of Two Mysteries

We do not know the reason for suffering.
Nor does a crab
When suddenly its open sea shrinks to a closed trap,
And, suddenly again, a giant creature shakes it out.

This is one of many giant creatures
And the crab is one of many crabs
Being crammed into a basket.

It cannot move and yet it is in motion –
Something huge and dark is taking... taking it... taking it to...
An emptying out,
A slab to crawl about on.
The giant creatures come and go from the slab.
Crab after crab is lifted away.

Its turn comes.
Again there is a basket,
But it's alone in the basket,
Taking... taking it... taking it to...
It doesn't know where,
It doesn't know the reason,
Knows only the feel of its misery,
This misery that never ends.

But it does end, for now there is water again.
But this isn't like the water it came from.
It is heating... heating it... heating it to...

It never knew the reason,
Knew only the feel of its boiling,
Found mercy only in death.

We do not know the reason for our suffering.
Some say it is part of the mystery of God
And hope to find that God is merciful.





I'm Getting Out

I'm getting out of the meat trade,
Sheer cruelty, I call it!
No, not to the animals – they're all right –

It's what’s done to the workers
By lunatics let loose on us –
Intruders from Whitehall, invaders from Brussels,
On the rampage with regulations, drubbing us with directives!

They tell me I must swot up
(Having had only thirty years' experience)
For a certificate of competence
In humane slaughter, humane stunning, humane everything.
It's an abattoir I run, for God's sake, not a hospice!

Oh, I'm getting out of this,
Getting into fish.
Fish is sane.
There's your lobster, there's your pot of boiling water,

You can forget certificates.





Safety First

People often ask, when told how shellfish are boiled alive,
“There must surely be some less cruel way to kill them?"
Well – yes – a way was invented
By perhaps the best scientific mind in that field.
An electric current, passed through a tank of salt-water, stunned them instantly.
Plunged into boiling water, they showed no signs of pain –
No writhing, no violent flips, no shedding of claws.

Just like dying in their sleep.
It was hailed as "One of the greatest breakthroughs since the captive bolt pistol",
That was in 1976.
Though flawless in the laboratory,
It could not be used in kitchens
For health and safety reasons.





Matters of Judgement

I took the shellfish trade to court
to put a stop to boiling the creatures alive.
“It’s easy enough for him,” said the chef,
“to tell me to stun them first!
Can he tell me how to pay for the extra labour?
By prices too high for my customers?”
“Not too high,” ruled the judge, “if it reduces suffering.
It is a price worth paying.”

Justice for shellfish!
The test-case won for our campaign…if only
the court had not been merely the backdrop
to a debate shown on cable TV.

He didn’t lose graciously,
and I didn’t win graciously.
He was animal abuser to the likes of me.
I was lunatic fringe to the likes of him.

Just our luck, we had to face each other again,
returning to London on a crowded train.
His eyes gave a flicker of recognition,
I gave a slight nod.
Then he opened out his newspaper
and I pored over a none-too-readable pamphlet.

I was bound for Charing Cross,
he for London Bridge.
There, he offered his hand and said, not unaffably, “See you again.”
I shook hands, returned his farewell
and then wondered about shaking such a hand.
It went against my better judgement,
but better judgement, had I refused, would have nagged still more.


Who can judge that?





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‘If there was ever a contest to find the Nicest Bloke In Bristol, they’d have to disqualify Joe Solomon before anyone else would bother entering. Poet, stand-up comedian, ex-communist, animal rights and anti-racist activist, anti-death penalty campaigner, and enthusiastic devotee of Robert Burns. Edinburgh-born Joe... had a succession of manual labouring jobs before being accepted as a mature student at Bristol University. His social sciences course opened his eyes to the gulf between rich and poor, and after graduation he went into welfare rights advice work...

He was active in the Anti-Racist Alliance and Campaign Against Racist Laws, organised two ‘Poets Against the Death Penalty’ events in support of a charity which assists poor people in capital cases in the US, and had a penfriend on death row...

His other pet project, The Shellfish Network, came from Joe’s early experiences as a kitchen porter. One of his tasks was to carry tanks of live lobsters to the kitchen, where they would be plunged into boiling water. He campaigned against such barbaric practices through the national Network which he founded.’

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from Round These Parts’


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