MY POETIC HEART
Fiordaliza Charles
Copyright 2012 By Fiordaliza Charles
Smashwords Edition
DEDICATION
To my creator and savior GOD. To my mother who always encourages me to do my
best, my daughter who always believed in me, my husband who always been a supporter
of all I do in life and to my family and friends that have supported me in the making of
this book and in life. Thank you and I will never forget you.
ACKNOWLEDGEMNTS
Thanks you God, for giving me the ability to read and write, thank you all of staff of Publish America for giving me a chance of a life time and the opportunity to be heard.
Thank you for being a friend and helping me become a better poet Marcia.
Very special thanks to my family and friends that always believed in me and in everything, that I do in life. Thanks to all the bookstores that hold my book for others to enjoy, your support means so much to me. Much love to mother who created me and never stopped believing in me, To my special friends I will never forget your words of encouragement.
I am especially grateful to my daughter Kadiya Smith whom, sat down with me each week and read all my poems out loud for me and told me “Mom these are great, I can’t wait until your book comes out” and last but not least my husband who encourages me every day to be a better wife, mother and happy person. I love you so much.
Fiordaliza Charles
LOVE INDEED...
Not spending your nights alone
You want to redo everything
Their words activate your soul
Your days are no longer cold
Time seems to go so fast
Feel complete when they get back
Taste their kisses in the wind
You think of futuristic things
Awakening with them on your brain
can't go a day without talking to them
Feels like something is missing the whole day
Until the moment they show up again
You believe in them, no matter what others say
No one can't break you apart
You know they are your soul mate from the start
They will forever, remain in your heart
IS OVER WHEN...
There is nothing left to be said
Words that you said can't be replaced
You wish the day was over
They give you their cold shoulder
You wish that you was elsewhere
When you look at them, there is no one there
Nothing else they say make you smile
Your mind is filled with so much doubt
Arguing becomes the new way to talk
You want to take shorter walks
You don't miss them throughout the day
Your heart is filled with cry-full pain
Everything becomes more than what it is
Puzzled with questions deep within
When your body no longer wants their affection
and your heart is no longer at attention
SORRY...
I thought you had my back
until the very end
as I would done for you
you was my own best friend
Your sorry, for no thinking
before your actions
you hope that I forgive you
but got a different reaction
Trust is so hard to obtain
but, harder to maintain
It all went down so fast for us
like a house burning down in flames
Please don't go, you asked me
but, I never felt this hurt
I was not good enough for you then
Sorry, will just not work
THE GAME...
Is in this game
You were so mixed
Believe it you was there
She took your soul everywhere
She fooled you into believing
You needed her to survive
But, she destroyed your man hood
With everything you tried
At the point, that you met her
you were married to the streets
instead of your lonely wife
Who what’s there for you in need
In the game, you got lost
and she still remains the same
that's the last we heard of you
messing around with cocaine
TORN...
From the moment we met, you took my heart and ran with it
I should of listened to my friends when they said you was no good
but, I thought real deep with-in
That you was just miss-understood
I should of seen it coming apart, because of all the lies
You played games with my heart and had the perfect alibi
I can’t believe what you said
and that you just made me sad
You left me so puzzled and all I wanted was your love
I wanted to stay in your arms but, what can I do now
Sit around and wait again
For you to come back somehow
I know we lost all that we had, how could I ever be mad
I finally get to say goodbye, poof !!! be gone
No, I don't feel angry any more
but, my heart feels like is torn
C.H.A.R.I.T.Y
Coins, dollars and water bottles
I see y'all give them away
I'm hungry and thirsty
May I please have some today?
I apologize, did not see your there
I want to go home but, where?
The train and buses I do not own
but, where else can I call home
I need some money, is not for drugs
Can you see that I am just lost?
I need to feed my children
but, I can’t afford the cost
Tomorrow is another day
I'll stop begging y'all for now
Thank you for all you giving
and see you again somehow
DON'T SAY GOODBYE
Where there is love, there is a tomorrow
It is your love that I will fallow
Please be mines without a fight
Promise you'll make it alright
I will love you always
I will never leave your sight
Please say that you will be mines
and love me until the end of time
No one will ever replace
The good and the love we share
It will never fade away
because, it will always be there
It is you that I adore
Please don't you walk out that door?
Don't say good-bye, don't you leave
I need you here for eternity
WITH YOU
The sun never been this bright
the skies never seem so clear
the winters never been this warm
until the day you appeared
My days never felt so short
my heart never been this jumpy
I ache at the thought of your kisses
your lips is what I been missing
Thank you, for all that you give me
for your words of courage and wisdom
for being so thoughtful to me
and giving me your love endlessly
Without you, I feel so empty
my days never the same
I pray, you will always be here
and our love forever remains
I'M YOURS
I give you my all
heart, body and soul
tell you my best kept secrets
and anything that's missing
I give you myself
complete and truthfully
I'll give you anything
and everything you need
I pray for us each day
I say each prayer with grace
I finally found someone
who puts a smile on my face
I am yours, today, tomorrow and always
you cannot be replaced
your all I'm thinking of
each day that I awake
BODY OF LOVE
My Face
Lights up lights up when I see yours, smiling back at me
My Eyes
Will not blink for a second, because I don't want to miss anything
My Nose
Loves to have you close to me so, that I can smell your cologne
My Legs
Tremble at the thought of you and the sound of your sexy voice
My Hands
Have to hold your hands each day so, that I can feel safe again
My Lips
Can't wait to kiss yours again because they are as sweet as candy
My Ears
Like to hear you say my name because, it sounds special coming from you
My Heart
Feels so empty when we are apart because, you carry pieces of my heart
DEEP
I gave up on love
I said I'll never love again
Love was long gone from my system
but, you showed me what I was missing
I felt it deep in my heart
Maybe, everything else was apart
Now, I'm swimming like a dove
Can you blame me I'm in love
Love never entered this way
My heart never felt this great
I thank God for you each day
and, that I found in you my soul mate
Deep into this ocean of love
I never thought I would dive so hard
Now, there is nothing we can do
but, wish that we never part
REST IN PEACE
All this time I tried to change you
I should of loved you for you
You always loved me the same
Despite of what we've been through
They say you never know
What you got until is gone
You were a star to many of us
Who now feel so alone
You made a difference in our lives
Our hearts will never forget you
You are one of a kind
No one could ever replace you
Our hearts are now broken
No one could mend it together
I know, today I have to say goodbye to you
but, it will not be forever
CAPTURED
You have something of mines
That I guarded all this time
Your words broke down my walls
I feel just like a new born
How can I ever go back
My heart loved you from the start
Loving you made me feel so complete
With out you I can not breath
You make me feel I can fly
Like the world belongs to us
I feel like a child at play
For the first time in a park
Tell me you will never leave me
That our love will always stay
Today, tomorrow and always
We will forever remain
SCARED
Some say love hurts
well, I feel the pain
I can't get the feeling out my brain
The one that makes my heart strain
You say that you love me, In conclusion
How come I can't see it ?
How come I can't feel it ?
All I seem to know is confusion
I feel lost and alone
No reason for us to remain
All we have is painful memories
Of what we had to sustain
I thought we would never end
You and I was were never meant
Now all I do is regret
That day that we ever met
WHAT IF...
We did not ever meet
Held on to each other deep
Apart we were meant to be
Togetherness never comes
It was all a physical attraction
Forever is not what we want
We do not see eye to eye
Hurting each other more every time
Always make each other cry
True love we never find
It was not all that we expected
Forever we get lost in the world
We had no one to blame for our actions
How can we ever forgive each other
All that we had fades away
Today we change our ways
If we let our love go to waste
Friends we will remain
LOST -N- FOUND
We stared at each other for a brief moment
The world just stopped moving
Maybe it was me
but, when you looked at me, I just knew it
I found myself a real soul mate
I miss you more each day
Can not wait to have you by my side
I fallen so deep, I cannot lie
You've showed me a new way
You make me feel so complete
Maybe, it was just for that night
but, everything felt so right
My love will always be yours
Where ever you are, I'll follow
Because in you I found myself
and hope for tomorrow
WHY SHOULD I CARE...
Can you give me a reason
why tears have not stop falling
why my mind is still in shock
and my heart you were controlling
You want to continue or restart
like this love of ours is a game
why should I care what you want
If all you do is break my heart
Giving all my love to you
respecting your wishes and trusting you
I gave you my heart to hold forever
You take it for granted? Never
I'm glad we ended this fight
everything will be alright
I'm done with living a lie
I no longer want to try
I SHOULD OF KNOWN
If I listened to my heart
It was visible like a star
you will never be true to me
should of known that from the start
Deep feelings of regrets and beyond
I should of went with my thoughts
said it will not last forever
I guess I was not that clever
Now I'm sitting here. Alone and confused
lost for words and feeling used
but, I have to think of tomorrow
to a place where there is no sorrow
I never should of took it there
even though my heart for you still cares
but, now I have to make it back home
without you, I should of known
GOODBYE NEW YORK
Goodbye New york
City of Sorrow
I'm moving on
Happiness I will fallow
Hello sweet country
great things all around
Is a different air and a solid ground
I feel all the love now
Love is in the air
I know I feel it all
I declare today, I will never return
Goodbye again New York
THE ONE
He is not short, nor too tall
I perfectly fit into his arms
His smile drives me insane
I melt away when I hear his name
He is one of a kind and so unique
His smile make me so weak
He makes me feel extra special
Glad I found my hidden treasure
He never argues or complains
He wants to give me his last name
I'm number one in his life
He pleasures me with his mind
The one, reaches my soul
He makes my body feel whole
He is all that I ever wanted
So lucky my wish was granted
ABC OF LOVE
A-Are we there yet.? I hope that we make it last
B- Because I'm ready to start loving you all over again
C- Come give me all your love as I will give you mines forever
D- Don't ever leave my sight because you are the one
E- Everyday we have each other and all that life unfolds
F- Forever I will remain yours completely
G- Give me all you have to offer don't cheat me
H- Have trust in me and that I wont hurt you
I- In deep oceans of love we will always swim
J- Juggling our hears together and never dropping any part
K- Kisses from the heart that we share together even when we're apart
L- Loving each other like the love of romeo and Juliet
M- Making it last for eternity, thanks for being heaven sent
N- No one can break us apart, we are meant to be together always
O- Only you hold the key that can open my heart
P- Perfect match made in heaven, no one can break us apart
Q- Questions of doubts never enter our minds, the truth our heart holds
R- Righteous and sacred the love we share and it will always be there
S- Smooth and silky skin that asked to be caressed
T-Together forever and always we will always remain
U- Unbreakable like no other our love will always remains
V-Valentines never been a holiday, because every day is the same for us
W-Without you I feel lost and confused, I know that you feel it too
X- X is to cross off the word pain, which we will never feel
Y-You are my everything and more than I ever imagined
Z- Zippered I am to your heart and I am glad we never grew apart
IT WAS LIFE...
It was a beautiful day
I notice the way you spoke
I felt the love in the air
It was stronger then I ever known
I continued to see the light
I held my fears inside
I did not want to hurt again
I felt that once in my life
I wondered what you were thinking
I looked at you as you started speaking
I gave you all that you needed
It all started on that weekend
I am sitting hear reminiscing
I love the way my heart melts
I am so glad that I found you
It was life that I felt
“HOLD ON”
Whispers of sweet love
Your kisses is all I wanted
No one compares to you
Like a wish you was granted
I spent all my life away
Now, I'm here by your side
I pray that we never part
I know you wont break my heart
I will always be here for you
As long as you hold on too
The night that you said “I love you”
All my wishes have came true
So unreal, this feeling
My heart feels so brand new
I cant imagine life
without the sight of you
NEVER PART...
The day finally arrived
and boy, was I surprised
I looked into his eyes and felt so pleased
then he got down on one knee
He asked me, will you marry me?
I said yes, instantly
There was nothing to think about
I love him without a doubt
The question was answered
As the days went by we eloped
You can see we truly are in love
Everyday we see it grow
Now we completed each other
With every piece of our heart
We took a bow to love one another
until death, do us apart
LOVE HURTS
Some say love is like a pleasure
that it feels like a hidden treasure
can you truly love someone
and not have been through the pressure
Love can hurt you in so many ways
love can leave you in a daze
get prepared for was ahead
or it can leave you for dead
Love never feels like is real
Is like you been drench by the rain
don't be surprised your in love
It will never be the same
If is real love, you will nearly go insane
love will never leave your brain
It will never save your heart
That's why it hurts from the start
S.T.R.A.N.G.E.R.S
Our paths will always bring us back
the love we shared was made to last
it will never seized from our souls
because we still care through it all
Separated since an early age
everyday that passed we felt the pain
today, tomorrow and always
lets not wait until is too late
For many years my tears they flowed
It showed me that our love was strong
never imagined that it will take this long
to be together now that we are grown
I saved myself for you
My heart will never be untrue
face the fact that your in-love with me
and strangers we'll no longer be
REAL LOVE
The night was still young
beautiful as our new love
we held each other for so long
It was magic all day long
Our spirits joint together
our mind,body and souls awoke
we knew it from the start
this love was meant to embark
We were both gentle
as we should have acquired
falling into a deep ocean of love
and full of wet desires
As we joined together as one
we said, I love you at once
I'm glad we saved the best for last
when I love you said it back
E.M.O.T.I.O.N.S
Like the bees and flowers
together we go
whispers from the wind
bring us back home
Surrender your heart to me
because, I will never hurt you
my words reveal my true soul
Our love will always grow
The winters are never cold
Our love makes the sea blue
no matter what we go through
my heart will belong to you
I'll look for you when I'm lost
because you are my guide
I want to be by your side
even if we both shall die
NOT A DREAM...
Standing in front of me
I could not blink my eyes
Afraid that if I close them
I will lose this beautiful site
I just wanted to be held
you did and then you left a spell
throughout the years our love grew stronger
our hearts knew who was their owner
Now here we are in love
some where to call our own
in your arms I feel so warm
wishing I never be left alone
The memories of this moment
will always remain in my heart
it was real at first sight
and this love for you I can't deny
UNHAPPY HOME
Happiness
What is that ?
You smile for a while then back to a frown
There is no happiness, not in this home
filled with no trust
and no one to hold
Trying to remember, the good times we shared
and it brings me right back
to the days that you never cared
Happy home is what I'm after
now I just want to go back
to the happy home we once had
I FEEL IT
I feel it, deep with in
you got me, under your spell
a love like this I never felt
you stole my heart right from under my belt
I can not concentrate on nothing else
I cant sleep when we are apart
finally found someone that makes it last
thank you for being the best I had
I said I would never love again
but I cant imagine my life without you
everything has changed for the better
I will be with you in every weather
I feel the love deep inside my soul
I know that you are the one
please, don't give my love away
and we will forever remain
HEALING
Needing affection
wanting to be caressed
I felt so lucky
unlike the rest
Tell me your secrets
lets talk about us
goodnight kisses
and midnight hugs
Is like valentines
through out the years
no more sadness inside
or unhappy tears
healing has begun
the one I truly feel safe with
I thought you knew that I was blue
Healing can only come from you
IS IT OVER ?
Can we talk?
the world has became so cold
no need to stick around and feel strange
our love is now filled with pain
Do we really need to forget?
Our body language says we not able
Seeing each other feeling miserable
will not make it go away
Don't you wish that we've never met?
I never felt this sad inside
How will I ever replace what we had
My heart wants to forget you last
Is it over, will it last ?
Will we just regret our past
our love is to strong to be outgrown
Lets just go back to the place we used to call home
ALL, I HAD
I gave you my ALL
but you took everything I HAD
this love we shared turned into PAIN
I just no longer feel the SAME
I'm giving up on us once and for ALL
I miss my past and all I HAD
the chain is now broke I'm no longer in PAIN
and you are free to roam, is never the SAME
Today I freed my heart, I done with it ALL
I said goodbye to a love I HAD
wish I never felt the PAIN
I'm done with fighting to keep feeling the SAME
Think of me, I will forget it ALL
when you miss the joy in your life we HAD
when you feel alone and in PAIN
I will never go back to the SAME
I NEVER KNEW
When love is gone it takes your soul
nothing you do makes you feel whole
It takes your heart and flips it away
You never trust the same again
I opened my eyes, to find your not there
No one looking at me, no breathing on my neck
only the molds of your body where you once laid
the bed is so cold, I felt like if I was dead
I haven't been the same since you left
I thought we were inseparable
that nothing will ever get between us
I never saw it coming, Now stop and think
I am here to declare my love
I never knew I would feel this way about you
I cant help the way I feel so cold
please bay will you just come back home
BABY BLUES...
I can not wait to see your smile
Your soft hands holding my finger tight
waking up endlessly through out the night
just to make sure that you alright
I want to kiss your little cheeks
sitting there so rosy and pink
you as cute as a button with beautiful skin
keeping you safe from hurtful things
I want to give you daddy's last name
and my last will be the same
I will love you forever
no one could ever replace you
I am crying out to the world
send me an angel from above
until that day comes, I will just be blue
and sit right here and wait for you
MY ALL
I wrote you a letter
thought it was much clever
to tell you how I feel
the love I have for you is so real
Do you love me for me
because, I love you for you
your all that I ever wanted
like a real dream come true
You are my everything
I will never cause you pain
take me in your arm
before I go insane
Give me all of you
Ill give you mine all in return
For you I will conquer the world
because, you are my all
My definition of Love...
Saying the words through your eyes
your heart speaks from itself
being apart makes you want to cry
because you need them by your side
knowing that one day is not enough
feeling they are completely yours
you cant wait to sign on the dotted line
where your name becomes one of a kind
Never having to say your sorry
Not feeling emotionally used
Joy and laughter comes easy
Never feeling confused
Feeling like you won the lotto
being together for today and tomorrow
everyday feels like a glove
knowing they were sent from above
HE MAKES ME...
He makes me
Smile, cry and dream all in one
Laugh, joyful and happy inside
This one really stole my heart
He makes me
Feel like the world is always ours
Feel like I'm under misty rain showers
Feel secure about tomorrow
He makes me
Stop thinking negative thoughts
Understand the woman he loves
Feels as pretty as an angel above
He makes me
Want more of his love each day
Look at the stars in a different way
Love myself and love him the same
MISSING YOU
Sitting here reminiscing
what could I have done different
we can just turn back the hands of time
to a place where you was mines
Things have changed between us
there is no denying that
look back at the times we shared
it was ticking like a clock
I want it back, me and you
until the time stop ticking again
I want everything to remain
I will love you until my dying day
I miss you baby, please come back home
give me your heart, body and soul
don't leave me out in the rain
with out you I'll go insane
STOLE
I remember at one time
No one could get to my heart
It was not that I was shy
I just did not want to cry
My heart was blocked from abused
Feeling lost and misused
You made feel you was true
and I never felt confused
This was not supposed to happen
What have you done to me?
Loving you is so easy to do
My days with you are never blue
I wanted this for so long
My heart feels like it's own
I'm stronger then I've ever been
Thankful that my heart you stole
BROWN EYES
I look into his brown eyes
and I see our future indeed
clearly and so much that I couldn't before
this is the man that loves me forever more
I look into his brown eyes
and it makes me realize wow
many days that went by
and I never felt how I feel now
I look into his brown eyes
and he looks deep into mines
memories come back of our many happy times
he has never made me cry
I look into his brown eyes
all that I can do is smile
he makes me feel brand new
like a new born baby child
FEELINGS...
What are they really for
most people just
leave them at the door
Why make up then is all over
towards the end
reality bites so hard that you can even
be their friends
why should anyone care
soon enough they disappear
all the years wasted
with nothing to show but tears
If love is not what you want
don't keep that person around
make sure they keep a smile
and not making them just frown
Feelings that is all we have
you can place them in your path
never to return back
say goodbye and just leave it in the past
UN-PRETTY
Yes, you have a long nose
Yes, you have some big lips
what about the beauty
that only grows from within
Looking for perfection
for the world to never see
what about what your about
can they see that in a crowd
Everyone seems big on beauty
outside in the public eyes
what about that heart of gold
that we all possess inside
Can people see that you cry
can people see your alone
is not for them judge you
only the one from above
TEMPTATION
There you was, standing before me
like someone who did not know me
but, I knew I wanted you to be mines
It was all over my face and mind
You looked at me and I looked away
did not want you to see that it was written all over my face
I wanted you for just a while
you always make me want to smile
I kissed you once in a dark alley
but, it was all just a dream
then you woke me up when you said my name
but, I never felt the same
As you told me, you had the same dream
I wanted to be your fantasy
giving myself to you as I mentioned
but it was all just a temptation
TAKE ME AWAY
Take me away
From all this pain
from all the stress
from all the cries
I want you now
one day at a time
in a class of our own
where are bodies will unfold
Give me all of you
stay by my side
make me feel good inside
take me to ecstasy with your eyes
Take me in your new world
keep me safe from harm
don't ever leave or let me go
lets go to places nobody knows
A POEM FOR MY CHILD
I promise to love you with all I have
I'll make sure your always safe and warm
You are unique, like no other one
You are such a beauty inside and out
my memories of you will never fade
from the first time I held you
I knew you were specially made
Growing up now, so fast in this cold world
I hope that you will always remember
mommy, loves you no matter what
because you are a piece of my heart
DEAD WITH IN..
Where is my heart
where is my soul
you took it all
and then you was gone
I feel nothing inside
my tears all cried out
angry is not the word
I'm torn up in pieces you know
Finally I came to realize
you never loved me
how cant I be so blind
now I'm sitting here lonely
Dead with in
my souls in not complete
how can you be so cruel
and tell me that you love me
NOT ANYMORE
You said it first
I saved your soul
bur, I love you was just words
you showed me how to be so cold
you filled me with broken promises
you told me this would not happen
how come I feel lost and confused
bruised heart and confused
I thought you loved me for real
but that's not how I feel
my thoughts got to painful moments
all this seems just unreal
Give me my heart back
I don't want to be with you
we are not meant to be
look at what you put me through
MY LOVE...
Is unconditional, is so unreal
I give you my heart and soul
You can make it all yours
forever, is all I know
Give me your heart to make my own
I will never let you down
you will smile like a clown
I will always be around
Sweet kisses and hugs
make you feel secure each day
I will never try to change you
and be here for you always
My love, is what you want
my loving good from the start
no one will ever change that
because you are my better half