Author's Note:
Readers, I thank you for taking an interest in my work.
I'm critical about everything I write because I, like most, want it to be the best.
As you can see by the title this ebook is called “Cruel Summer”
It deals with summer of 2009. Not that 2009 is, or depending when you read this, was a cruel summer. It's more of a play on words.
This ebook like most of my writing is relationship based. With a few added topics included.
Enjoy.
Armor {Cruel Summer}
I didn't wanna see us end here
But your actions tell me all i never wanted to hear
I wanna tell you that I'm here for you
Cuz I know you've got a journey ahead of you
But the way you're still drag'n me along
Makes me not even wanna care any more...
What am I say'n
I'm say'n, baby go and get your armor
Cuz my next few actions shouldn't make you wonder
You set the stage my friend
It's finna be a real cruel summer...
What am I say'n
I'm say'n, baby go and get your armor
Cuz I've got a few tricks up ma sleeve
And you're now forewarned
Hope you've got protection from the heat...
Let's throw it back to the very beginning
When I wrote, "I didn't wanna see us end here"
Bcuz I don't think you got it clear
I never wanted this war
But I've built my self up pretty well
When I put up those walls
Is wasn't meant to keep you out
But to see if you'd try and break 'em down
Instead you left me to fend for self
And I wasn't built to continually fall
So do remember, be prepared for it all...
Coldest Summer Ever
I've turned ma back on one
I've turned ma back on two
I don't wanna be heart broken again
So don't make me turn ma back on you...
I'm as loyal as they come
But at the end of the day
I'm fight'n battles all on my own
So I think it's time I officially let ma baggage go...
I'm gonna take some backlash this summer
But if that happens, so be it
Fake phony niggas, don't need it...
Even from a far you seem like you've got a handle
You're the type I'd post up on some mantle
I've learned to look for the best in folk
So I'm finna play you kinda close
I slide of from my crew every now and again
And temp to play with fire
You'll be the ultimate sin...
For those two lames that I'm leave'n behind
They'll turn to each other to survive their coldest summer ever
For you, I mean you've caught my eye
So I'll be down for you make'n the rest of your life so much better...
Pillow Talk {...Forgive Me}
No matter how much pillow talk I have with my next ex
There'll be no reason you'll need to forgive me
Cuz I won't lay up and speak about you
No matter what obstacles we've gone though
If you can't trust that, the that's on you...
You've laid up, and laid up, and have laid up some more
You mean to tell me
My named wasn't dragged up and down your floors
I highly doubt that with everything I have left in me
But that's the difference between us you see...
I don't have to resort to slander
I know my poems may contradict that line
But at the end of the day, they're just rhymes
True stories, but they're not all about you
So if you wanna take offense
Guess that's what you'll have to do...
Matter fact...
Do forgive the fact that I need to move on from you
Forgive me for need'n to be loved too
Forgiveness is all that I'll ask
It'll be enough to get past
All that went down in the past...
If you can do this for me
Then I'll make sure you're safe to walk in these street
The drama is done
So let's overcome
Cuz you've got bigger things to worry about than me.
Flirt {Game Proof}
I've been build'n you up a lot lately
But are you just finna break ma heart
I doubt you'll tell me your whole M.O
But I need to get focused before we start...
Flirt'n is all good
Eye contact and small talk
Flirt'n is all good
I see the look in your eyes as I walk...
I'd like to believe I've got ma game proof vest on
But with the heat develop'n
I could be wrong...
I mean my mind kinda goes off into space
Once I look out the window see you there
I jump up quick with out a care...
But I've gotta be a tad more careful
Cuz you could become a handful
And not entirely in a good way
And that right there wont be a good look
So today I'll try and be more prepared than I was yesterday...
But keep up the flirt'n... Cuz I must admit it's work'n...
Heatwave {Interlude}
Folk wanna strip and hit the pool
And I ain't one to complain
Cuz we go'n through a heatwave
And that's what heat makes you do...
Kids act'n a fool
Cuz they outta school
But the 'rents need to keep the chil'ren in their place
Cuz they quick to wild out when someone steps to their face
But in the Bronx ain't no tell'n what'll happen during a heatwave...
One Track Mind
Money, money money answer me please
Why is that you're so hard to receive
I just love my flashy ways
But the economy's fuck'n me up these days...
That's all I here outta peoples mouths
And I get what they complain about
But at the end of the day
I hear, "...you can't take it with you..."
So if you got it today
You better put it to some good use...
I'm summer shop'n though I ain't got no job
But riddle me this...
Do I have to look broke just cuz I'm broke
I'll help you out... Hell No...
So I say get out there and do the damn thing
If you got hundreds or fifties
Make it rain, baby, make it rain
And if you a nickel and dime dime
Make it drizzle shorty wit' yo' piggy bank change...
We only got one live to lead
You hear me
These lives are on loan
So don't worry yourself
The Lord don't charge admission to see Him on the throne...
You can take this poem
And treat is as a joke
But I've one more thing to say before I go...
I'm Broke Bitch!!! But I Still Do Me... And I Do Me Damn Well...
Growing Pains {Beat It}
They'll prolly tell me not to come 'round no more
And I know why they'll say that for
There'll be fire in their eyes and snickers as they slam the door
And I'll beat it, I'll beat it
I won't run, And I won't shed no tear
OK we were close like blood
But there'll be no love loss here
I wanted to fall for some one knew
Thought they'd be proud of me too
But I'll beat it, I'll beat it
In time even the strongest bonds are broken
Nothin' in life is forever and always
It doesn't even matter who's wrong, who's right
It's just a simple case of those growing pains...
They'll prolly want my head on a platter
I ain't finna run
So the outcome can approach even faster
The tie that bonds 'em is the tie that'll break 'em
So I'll beat it, I'll beat it
I gotta show them all that I can deal
Whether or not my support system is real
They'll kick and scream
But if need be I can move on to a whole new team
But I'll beat it
Cuz I hate stick'n 'round where I'm no longer needed...
In time even the strongest bonds are broken
Nothin' in life is forever and always
It doesn't even matter who's wrong, who's right
It's just a simple case of those growing pains...
In time even the strongest bonds are broken
Nothin' in life is forever and always
It doesn't even matter who's wrong, who's right
It's just a simple case of those growing pains...
...Tell It Like It Is
I'm step'n to the stage
Ready to tell it like it is
I'ma break down my undercover ways
I'm not really one to talk slash write like this
But I want you to know that bcuz of you I'm changed...
When I stare it's only cuz I care
So don't take offense
I want you to be pleased
Or rather pleasured
I wanna get to know you better
To the point neither of us has to feel pressured...
When I think of you
I think those naughty thoughts
Like chocolate covered
Mattress on the floor
So no someone'll scream "bloody murder" kinda thoughts...
From a far you seem
Yeah, you seem crazy, sexy and cool
So once I get to know you
I mean once we get a little closer
To the point that I can hold you
I'll give you that TLC I know you deserve...
Baby, my word is my bond
And try and tell it like it is
The rest of me is what I'ma hold close
I thought I'd give you some insight
So if you feel'n me...
Don't hesitate to to approach
I don't bite... Hard...
Don't Get {L.A.Z.Y}
I'm aware that what we've got is just start'n
But I have a few things to put out there
And it's all if you plan to keep me near
If this is set to be just a fling
Then you can delete all you're about to read today...
Don't get your friends involved in us
Especially not the un-supportive ones
Don't stop all that sexiness that attracted me to you
Cuz when I'm not with you I'm right back up in that window
P.S. Don't get lazy
What it took to attract me to you
Is what it's gonna take for me to stay stuck like glue...
I'm Done.
Mind U Leave'n
Hear me, hear me
I don't mind you leave'n
Cuz we've never had that bond
After all this time has past
We're still not attracted to one another...
I hate to say I've hung around
Waitn'n patiently I might add
And you, you held me there
With the noose I tied around my neck
All bcuz you knew exactly what to expect
If you ever let me go for more than a minute...
I'm hear'n tales of your new life {With}
Car window signs that read, "Baby On Board"
Really, need I say more
You don't wanna throw it in my face
But your family has no qualms about put'n me in my place...
You owe me nothin'
I don't mind you leave'n me again
Just know that this time we're through
I''m move'n on to enjoy a summer of love
Say'n deuces to you, who never cared enough...
It's bittersweet how I devote all these words to you
Bitter, bcuz it leaves me with a "what if" feel'n
But sweet, bcuz it's what leads me to another breakthrough...
Damn, I don't mind you leave'n
But I love to see you walk away {just stay away.}
Pre-Teen Love Affair {Flashback}
I never cared about your spouse
Or asked for keys to that other house
All I craved for was you
And all those times we'd rendezvous...
Think'n back I don't remember much
But I'll always remember us
Is that the same thing you'd say
I don't care either way
Cuz I'm here and I can flashback
Back to the time where you were all mine
Not all mine - But that's neither here nor there...
My pre-teen love affair with you was exciting
And that's to say the least
As someone older than I you taught me things
These are things I still lean on today
And I'm sure I'll pass the rest of my days feel'n this way...
Today I flashed back to my pre-teen years
Cuz those were the best
All bcuz I had you right there
Some might've said it was wrong
No some blatantly said it was "Fucked Up"
Needless to say, that didn't stop us
Well not until the last straw
And that's the part that was fucked up...
I'm write'n these words
On the off chance they find their way to you
I'm headed back to the future
But I wanna leave you with some truth...
I never cared about your spouse
Or asked for keys to that other house
All I craved for was you
And all those times we'd rendezvous...
Move'n Out, Move'n In
I hear you're plan'n on move back home
Perfect time'n, as usual
Cuz by the time you arrive I'll be gone
I ain't gonna sit around and welcome you back
Last thing you'll see from me is the u-hauls break lights...
You're move'n in and I'm on ma way out
You shoulda known I couldn't hold it down on my own
So I found suitor to take your place
So enjoy your life
Cuz I plan on rebuild'n that life I let you take from me...
There's no reason why I should feel ashamed
I'll always love you
But I'm actually done with the games
You're incomparable, you're irreplaceable
But that doesn't mean I have live life alone...
I don't wanna wish bad things
So I'll leave in peace
But to add insult to injury
I'll be move'n in right across the street...
A Moment Like This
I like to learn new things
And you, you're the newest
So take me to your place
And put me on to all your raunchy ways...
I'd like to experiment with the rougher side of love make'n
The side where we'd break some shit
I'd like you to share this with me
I want no one but you to enjoy a moment like this...
You can pull out the handcuffs if that's your style
If you've got none just cut up some sheets
Let's work with what we have
I'm down for the ride if you are
But do remember, there's no turn'n back...
Damn, you got me want'n to break out the whips and things
I'm serious
Look me dead in my face...
I can't believe I'm tell'n you all these things
You've prolly never met a nigga this strange
Wait, don't think I'm totally deranged
I just want to explore another side of bliss
Ready to step out this shell I've always reside in
And I want you to experience a moment like this...
What do you say...?
Price Tag Kinda Love
My pockets aren't endless
And I ain't carry'n that one of those black cards
But I puts in work when need be
No five finger discounts needed when you're 'round me...
My last muse was all bout boost'n and his hustle
Me, I'm no saint, but I ain't thirsty for trouble
See, this finna be that price tag kinda love
You the type
The "money ain't a thing" kinda love when it comes to us...
They say "money can't buy me love"
So we'll make cash a start off point
An added bonus if you will
See, that's the best right there
And I'm in the market for a new thrill...
Are you down or what
Cuz I'm ready to make a couple moves
and I'd hate to step off
You know, if I can't step off alongside of you...
Don't be afraid to lose control
Worry not about the drama bound to unfold
Just run off with me for 'bout a week or two
Then when we return
We'll return to our regularly scheduled program
All the while from head to toe look'n brand new...
And act like nothin' happened.
BitterSweet {Bonus}
Damn, just four days into the summer and here we go
Another soul called home
Flip'n the channels and what do I read
"Michael Jackson has passed away" {Can't be...}
So I sat and watched a bit longer
Listened to what the reporters had to say...
Now I knew he was ill
But I didn't think it was this deep
MJ was a bad mother...
I'll watch ma mouth and pray that he gets to rest in piece...
His name has been dragged through the mud all the years
So what's to come
Probably some bittersweet tears
More slander on his name
While fans defend him just the same as ever
He'll definately be added to the list of those we'll morn forever...
R.I.P Michael Jackson
Sunrise: August 29, 1958 Sunset: June 25, 2009
© Copyright 2009 i.H.H.i Publishing
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