Lewis LaCook
for Lindsay
...and the mind winters in Chautauqua
under a sky swollen with heavy pets
and your coat slung across the recliner
this first snow corpses inside grass
and i would make impossible those words
to gloss the tongue over with
there are poem still in the son-room
she too thinks it’s all sugared
to have passed all light through this way
between us in seeming
can hear the winds unstrung over roof
can watch the willow think through season
a thud drums wet earth wholly solid
this is a temporary title
i’m a reminder of one who thawed
abandonment crumbs in old hill park
while i shovel man on tractor
scraping his hill
while i shovel i’m an actor
i’m doing greek uninsulated
you insult me with culture
uh you implacable you importantly
at this time distant
without secrets
a thimbleful of tinder and simples
crush fresh juice coolly cracked
and now we have this air torn with powder
the thorns are some umbrage traced
against your lips
guests set great store on roses
we turn our attention to inside our house
our hot animal hats are heavenly pets
look here i wonder about you
i know i’m scarred for life when while falling
asleep in my sister’s clean house
overwarm
i unreel these coats of image of arms
your land in your hands has shown me
ridges crusted with pine
and ash
i wish i could explain these burns
to you
they come from hot white tribes
and bullshit trilling howl wool ohms
the phonograph killed my barista
i feel swollen dim winking skills
wrinkling
tripped over my own cuffs time and time
when i saw my own kid dracula
sepia over my sister in her house
why sleep now with no word for me
no image gentle no crushed bone simples
just some watching me shovel our driveway
our house leads out from
out howling wool out
omnivorous but still anonymous
but still i’m vaporous
these various pipers sand their faces down
on shovelsful what’s peppered wind
got to do got to do with it
i saw my own kid dracula and happy
stalkers wall us in woods
improper
why go sleep now when you have almost
named me something at the end of your sleep
now when you’ve almost words for me
now when we’re also waking
strung gruff with energy pills
and i use coffee cans we’ve finished
as small garbage for office
white cat too sleeping
i think it’ll thaw in a few days
to prepare us for how we’ve thought out heaven
something like waking to winter-bright sunday
with of course last night’s meager dinner
still on the stove
having some coffee some pills
warmed over in the sunroom look at our
white land
i smoke a joint before your wake
after some reading over our white land
to be a serious old man is a mistake
pine cone feather and stone on a string
white cat wants patience at the door
you who wake with dog in tow
to snap our bathroom radio on
to tune in the tundra static
of what’s left over when liquid
bursts
over my shoulder yellow kitchen
lit by pale color fully wood-toned
to know everything about burls in flesh
shells left westward escapist opera
or an oracle cloned in cloaca aspartame
over my shoulder old age intones
when did you forget how to levitate
the pentagon
orange it up roughly
a lone rogue argument sprawled
hallway down a blue and white page
a documentary
but dusty and surely Nielsen
stunk up the house with reefer
is such a warm smell coming in
to taste you on your fists
to tune in the tundra static
more than afloat among
aggregate embers
as membership in leaking documents
spillage rustic or spillage engaged
me too as in falling off a hot shower
into the physical disabilities
the villain
painful with rain fall with thin iced gleam
eggs that towel on water copied tiles
these were more or less glued on
and your shoes have exchanged for awful boots
your mudroom grumpy with the cold and dead of spiders
your mothers empty and selling their breath to fly
how much longer you be arguing with web
cows auger gauged fantastic gag references
listless listless listless listless
because you don’t sleep and i can’t hear
you sleep
not through rooms and not as normally
more than afloat among
a sung trolling snug and unfolded
furling crystal chills over hunting ridges
let’s talk about our wars
and blown-out people left in ruined dunes
vowing aggression on the other
i refuse to acknowledge a third-party world
is what’s really saying hunkered in erie
an uncle to soldiers
weeping yucky emotive
as if some kind of sulk as some kinder milk
let’s talk about swans while you
look for your aux nipple
and teach me how to drink my penmanship
it’s the first of the month and rent is due
tearing apart the insides of infant augmentation
the stuffing in the couch reddens with desperation
while the rest of you disappears around the corner
out in the streets a hot misanthropic telegram
in an envelope poor but still gruffly loving
a sung trolling snug and unfolded
over umpteen moons a canteen hibiscus
smokes the sallow light of unmade kitchen
tables on which machines weep gentlemen
and just this is satiation just this is pure comfortable
rupture hustling trailed amplifier gorgeous
the gorgon ordinal originally paths
as they cancel lake effect snow
they cancel lake effect snow
i’m not going to go on that trip
anyway up to new york city
because he’s more use to us at home
with machines purring up a kitchen table
hump-backed cascades
like the thrillful escape through badlands badass
looks for the whole world like one street musician
you used to know from brussels
i hate when my glasses smudge
i hate made beds
oh sure your bathroom smells sweet and your toilet
seat’s padded and all over the place smells flowers
but i’d be very surprised if you had it another way
snow accumulations three to five inches
do i need a style manual for that
this badlands badass
laced with pure true sentiment
is graceful sugar on the nicked of a tongue’s
bubble absolved eventual
paucity of level landslide
anyway up to new york city
in a cold sun room with ice on my mind
the code docks in your skin
engaged with design
to wander through crafts unwashed
bucks wove from moss
because smiling at babies gives me headache
i’ve become not quite friends with velocity
and would make of you snow sculpt
urinate off the side
roads pour across some chautauqua table
indexes blessed with these kelvin appendices
impertinent
irregardless orgasms
shake this chill fluff from boots
knocked out in nouns fronts
oh fruit we can eat and grain suck
but prophetic origami clause stales
this record of names for snow
joint in cold dead cold
as if every state didn’t propose
mandatory its opposition flint
fuck these filters
fuck too endless sexual allows
you swallow sense crowding you
from your dappled body
and bemoan those little erosions
illnesses that feather rude
and nourish
the more drains the more gargoyle stilt
i lit up cavity sentience tense until grown
using french days up like dope cup
but still those ledges
i don’t want to live in his city
up to the grin folded over upon it
a fresh grail as caul marrow
aged like mother hipster wet
and rolled over powder
grape ass epidermal
eucharist strong store storm
morning vapor or some relative
or some relative
white cat not cold adroit at pause
too deliberate ugly lines
twice i saw you through stain
the lillies bending over
oh you’ll use nails
oh oh oh oh
ei yi yi
oh
flooding
do while color troubles us
in deep plum
ochre
you and i are at opposite end of the house
but not of your baby book
working on projects that
color trouble us
and so electric brains solar here
and so episodes coalesce
go fry
do while flooding obtains
as in holding court bitter chin nicotine sow
growls scald false sailboats a bottle
you drop by message canadaway creek
picked pirate up by boys to talk
under cover of culture
marooned
after one noon hooligans
refer to code for doors out of impoverish
i love you too like some dim summation
of myself the inbox soaked with cannabis
which greatly my relation to body expedite
empathize with it is what i ask anon
yeah they have alcoholic pills for you
hot colicky babes
are typing out your name right now
on a placard meant for an open gorge
calcium blushes when i stroke your chest
freckled and spotted and with each running
through me
run to dunkirk
damn mange legendary etched fleas
rustic surrealists practice loused-up dreams
just so when the running comes they’ll
get
it
right
always white cat convexity of shading
your gods and your devils stand sex with erased
your plane’s crashed over south america
in place
as we synchronize swum muffled groan
and the snow suffers no broke nigga
hydra willow washing house dwarf
as a man breathes into his saxophone
and outside’s spotless like singapore
your devils and gods are sexual
a sky swelling heavy with pets
a pelt of snowfall of snowbank of chancre
the air outside is perforated white
you’re out wrangling amphetamines
for us while the driveway impacts
everything here is piled on
drifted from one corner to the next
i’ve grown a long thumbnail you’ve blackened with polish
to more strongly hit strings we’re all tight across
a skin that breathes in beats culled from avenues
we all vanish in fearing crashes
artfully varnished in whispers in cracks
all along the framework of justice
elasticity
playful edifice
snow collects to negative trees
snow collects in great gritty swathes
snow like a lake lathe like a tithing
you teeth on me when we lay
leaving red brush marks of painted pain
we celebrate our understanding of each other
you stole some of your favorite pills
and brought me pink dex for holidays
icicles accrue off the gutters
and after a day of guilt and acceptance
you expire before midnight having never
slept
peptides coruscate certain murrain
i’m as flung as if fluids routine
basic psychoactive compounds lilting blood
brained and banging you for just seconds before
the glory of your body melts me
the glory of your body melts me
watch a silhouette of condensation
spread anonymous imagery over sun room door
overdone rooms intone soap ilk pumice
lest we forget the scripts piss apple
blintz religions hell-bent on frontal goal shrapnel
barrels down on punt humming what grass was
before they covered everything over with blindness
before the glory of your body dribbled down my leg
slimly a thaw fogs the ridges
the world drips with uneven smoke
you’re still sleeping our icicles have washed away
you’re still sleeping and want to cure the willow
if we were younger we would burn our animals
for it
cinder feeds the air ashes grow generation
the treeline watches us silently assessing
crawling over the hill my boot prints from a previous
walk through shocked ice for now corpses
grass underneath
there’s also such calm thinking death
is following all of it
instead of feeling trapped in whorls of
such crude misused body
we make love in the small morning
lit by blue lily lamp light
you’re naked for the first time ever
with just a crushed red blanket over your belly
you kiss me to some pitch that charred speech
to touch to talk too touched
while i try to complicate
transference of files just before noon
after sleeping on the office couch arm
numbed by its own weight
the snow just keeps falling on chautauqua
curved in two layer socks four layer shirts
to even out coming and going
here i am massaging data
into something useful on the other end
living in front of monitors tithed to network
protocol of location of sexual dissension
our cat’s needier in the hinge of morning
asking with blinks just above me what
is there to do in this time
before i start to remember birth
you
could play the lag on systems catching
up with themselves almost
real
time
immense as some mornings are
i mention them nameless impatient
some immense mornings holding notes
acoustic crosses scour burnished plots
afloat along trolling rotten sauces
rotating
you can even use your seat
as a floatation device
i like you
killed mint
clicking up and down
and when we die we’ll bury ourselves
some impotent morning air pocked with snow
visibility suddenly lipid at vapid polar stare
aware of
warring ardor orbiting control
crux allusion suction blunt troubled brawn
as i sprawl along the drone the loneliness
loudens at the height of slight hands
refracted below the surface of her nails on wood
and yes pain yes memory leaking yes amazing paper air
on a string reasons eerily repeat you
as though i too become memorable when the lights are down
you can even use your seat as a flotation device as your heart
velvety cannabis plush numbness plump underfoot
i get plumb with the wall when the wall always soccer
those moms coughing had her mouth slung lobed over hearth
though too be fair affect lingering on your fingers just before
sun’s down in the room she punctuates with holiday light
room’s blown cold and where smoking dramatically ambergris
dazzlingly chunked because i like the repetition
i like the resuscitation as where i incite icicle rebellion
because i shovel so your father can pull up and doesn’t
because the rescue blew up cold and parceled up on the ridge
we’d heard dark turnings some cold lasting gorge
against which she tunes her body by touch art
form rough and hearing stroll
you have to sign some shit
she tunes her house by softly murmuring
her strains echo through compliments snuggling
such a filthy dog this is where we should be living
a deadly end to her journey
dog knows best
as mine too my eyes filling up
sound simplifies my head violin vibrato
not out of loyalty to your friend but because you were
bewitched by her
seething with the sight of her
but is it the same guy
as dog nests over your legs
i’d keep on dreaming just before the monster caught me
i’d wake myself up felt levitated by vintage
in horsetown
a solstice eclipse a solar owl-ling
only at the urging of your friend
your mom asking someone slim
business on the front cry for help
it wouldn’t be right not to
positive i was bewitched by her bewitched
by what claws the creek grows in elliptic solstice
what long nights of the year
and with what we know of the sun
and sleep
i think you know very well
and these combinations will be fun later you know
nineteen hundred and forty six
was it your intention
in your early twenties the muddy 1990s
i worked stuffing advertisements into newspapers
at night in front of broadway lorain ohio
i worked thinking about the press
candy corn christmas lights spindling attic evergreen
what we spend and roughly we go here
it was winter all the time
it was my first taste of crank
empty battery
a whirl and engine turns
around slowly the depth of dark snow
pink bands of distant cities
our breath warming cars
and we’ve been out of touch
for two days
you are a genius i’m almost afraid
to touch you but your shape overcomes me
feels like i’ve poisoned some generous shrub
with greed for flying inside your body like a witch
there’s a certain triumphant smile you have
because you make me come
you are a genius and i’m almost dead
dated by whorls of flesh tusked at the fingers
but i’ve never been so attuned to any other
nor so ceaselessly commingled
flying inside you how witches fly
the buzz of these networked books wears slowly down
to bear the brunt of my wet boots shedding ice
but these you leave outside where they never dry
means at best oxidation
a stone holds to the hand in a fitful rotundity
you mention your fetid epiphany
at a funeral for death as in thinking one’s thoughts
could be enough to span animal limits
i pull those coins from pockets nervous dry
empty batteries pill blisters
almost bolstered by ovals on the sun
we don’t see that much anymore
the feral elephants have mostly been rode down
worn to half-heard high pitch
maybe you just didn’t feel good
you bought me whiskey
for christmas because sometimes we see stray dogs
wandering over the ridge in twos
the sun room so cold with green lights royal purple
space
and a single star snowflake
these are your hands
this is my blood
and some electric impulses
harpsichord
isn’t it
away off in moon
you sell me my old wishes
flying at that tip of cold endeavor
soulful elevator
condensation dreams the hamster working his wheel work
density overlaps cognition latitudinal
fugue or desert aether truth losers
you can tell by the antlers
in advance of armed breaking
i’m building over them now
so the temperature backs down again
around the consistent beat we spit
you would bake this stone you wouldn’t
think twice
remember to prod like a white cat in black corners
conversations i dream with you hazy
as i rove over your shoulders grazing
on touching you frantic with hunger
the lungs sat thoughtlessly on your gurney
and cows too wander through here sometimes
kicking up vague fevers as they pass
as i roam over your belly grazing
on what you smell like where
these animals queue up to lap the toilet
where water oscillates to some viscous humor
straight back into the pit helmet skull
allotment insensible whirling adored
robes obsolescence outside dying ever
i list each motion in the walls
i trial dimes for filth lithium drilling ghee
the clarification scared us because what if
up against the couch what am i hearing
whatever comes through we eat again
sting me with whiskey on my lips
singe me with your wishes
everything drips
this already exists
don’t you believe i will worry you
slow joints in the sun room
the burn room your questionable chinese chapstick
kissed christian
corroded winter earth wreathed in symbols
the thickness
dredged from blister
packs
and from here it looks like i left
the barn door open
from here it looks like
thaw dropped grass islands
battery is discharging
of some ephemeral springtime
now everything’s moistened
like your lovely aloe lotion
just below my screaming come
it packs a wallop
and still burns i stir with
turkey quill
in winter the sky becomes perplexed
by cloudy escarpments of devilishly variant air
these colors also run but also mingle
i take my last swallow of whiskey in
the same place any man takes it
through pores and a saxophone depth
cascading aperture fetid with interest
accruing soft lighting as the weekend dips
below thirty degrees imperial
that book your room mate left behind
bored the shit out of me
tangled vines holiday light
freezed green and black and lavender
at just where you step off
i guess i like the hinge and the potential
thresholds color us as the doors crick open
their necks trailing like lotus on trapped ponds
i’d like to see my former self of ten minutes
ago try something’d like to see that
motherfucker try
now even these villages seem crowded to me
tick-clock took cool mint nymph to bed
with a computer on his chest a dog
perched a-pillow atop his head
hair mixing into threads
i wanna be eaten by the land
your whole idea about the vagueness
does’t go into enough detail for me
death-like key grip on living vigil
twirled with a weather yearning fervid fiscal
poking around in my subconscious
what i thought when i woke up
it means i’d be nothing but a ghost
or hole in the time you spill on stalks
water dribbling down your chin to your breasts running
river like adam still up at portland anything
the matter back to the cottage said she wanted to leave
while the past peninsula adjusts to a new way of life
sooner or later
it can wait until tomorrow if you want to
for once i’m cooking dinner in the side of the moon
not rotten yet how could i dislike him i hardly
even know him
well there isn’t
following the widespread acclaim
rage generously over by the lamp
i hardly even gnaw him
isn’t there a well lewd and dull
ranging through your brain right now like
the cold makes lighters misfire
run out of everything even town o love
when sometimes i stress enough repeat it
enough to foam crashing lake creek cash-cold heart
the tell-tale inflation maybe these blissed eyes of snow
in slim chains all up and down the ridge o love
infatuated with feral references to the abstract
fitful satiation with unbroken textual column
wills nerd on rendition of our fats to salads and transport
down by the docks a crowd awes the single elegant tight-rope
down by the docks a crowd waves across the single elegant tide
tied tightly to thin mints i could see from my euclidean mast
a mist of angels a chord sounded hollow lawful drawn-on
with the last and amorous pit of pencil now panting over
you
as you lay sickish rapt with red velour
as you space heater our sun room until there is no winter
here
my wet boots full of plastic shopping bags
tickle minutes until limp wills lump summer among
the code wool lolling pop star fetish feathers
as like a gold whiskey stings deep in song thoughts
as like monkey god as light monthly friends us
i spin in the sun room clockwise and crawl awesome gall
bladder bad hats rang thorough locust scroll
i spin counter to and the earth trembles peckish
i’ll cycle through you womb ache woman
as eyes colored white with collocation flutter down on us
watch with kratom momentum our bundled into home
more or less essential with body hollowed out
holy old loneliness
a loud owl or lordly orifice amble
throughout towns grown too murderous arizona
tick clots counter to and the hungry earth
below glow blanket of quiet
i’m missing you as you went to see mom
towels gossip misanthropic with photographic glee
god how wonderful love’s burden on your face
viewed from slightly above angular angry sex
the void hones noises to crusts and angels
giants agitate you thoroughly though wet with illnesses
until only milk can curate your savage breasts
i went missing too you wonderful suspect
cigarettes and stimulants punctuate winter wood light
i get gorgeously fuzzy-headed thinking whiskey thoughts
of you
and even though albert ayler is a ghost i’m all right
in the head somehow wandering rooms
stuffing crumbs of divination into a stone bowl
until the brain lightens timeless spatial blossom
until there’s no such thing as an author
just under my skin
i hear these ears really leaped out
over hip-deep snow carrying the cat’s litter
might be in danger
the next seal of approval on works
but first we have an eternity
to find out about it
as you sleep nausea off a new sea
of fictions of human intersections
competing
of a very small number of writers
being more substantial in one lanugage
than another
sex with you yesterday grasping me
deep within you i gasp hot
wet
pushed from a blessing pressure
from my spine
by then he’s cooked
by a lack of conjunction independently afloat
i’ll show you some of my own work
but even now sickness switching gears stripped
blunt screw threads chattering barbed fences
where razors blur bits of us azure
i’m worried
your fever ever feelingly greased
smoking resin
and stirring my pipe bowl with a swiss army knife
cartoon collage opting fees
saved seconds ago
count on assumptions built into us by nature
there can be no such theory
thing dreams dog nested next to you
left me alone in the snow
with no great event other than the light
and no extinction
god starts coloring gold dusk salmon in
the trees
i’ll try not to worry about it
about spitting linguistics out all over
your inside man
i can still see my path there
my jaw also breathing also end of my hair
cigarette jutting
there are these flawed ways walled off in flavors
when my hands rove your shape loving you
land
i breed islands in pure air
brought down along the back of your neck
where does the sun go
or anything
i eat meat
and squashed grains
and thoughts therein
to a jaunty theremin
jaundiced pale lemon
oddly a city
salvia
average salary vengeance
but no more informative than
the rescue we skewer and rue
after an hour the DMT starts to wear
your clothes addled and plucked in a white closet
and to this quiet without you who has visiting your sister
and to this small roach i’ve treasured away beneath
my keyboard
the cat curled like he’s implicating code blocks
it’s all stepwise and calling other things
back from the grave of an include path
look my throat is dry without you here
the faucet leaks has to get up early to be replaced
and you’ve been reading too many articles about
fading love
too lucid hallucinatory affection burst
but to rub you with my mind god yes
you who fear the death of something elemental
and i’ve been thinking and thinking about dying
for a very long time so long i start to doubt
to this newly formed trust that in passing through states
something lingers
anyway i’m pretty sure what i feel for you
is not a combination of sugars
nor in cleaning my glasses segue talisman
you who worry too much on fetishes
worry too much on gingers and other succulents
being part of the grasses is being the grasses
and the waves never really disappear
but something below the shore feels them
and passes on sweetness dreamed
of dog padding through brown room
a soothing thoroughness pervades the vault
something below my belly feels you off
on top of the distance winter in chautauqua
ah blue blue blue what it says to us
sun’s started sitting later and later
for nonsense portraits
the whole world wordy with blue veins
pendulous and intemperate
i can be impenetrable here somewhat loose
smoking dagga in the sun room
until i know no further answers for time
but to get to it trudge on tramp through it
let me kill nothing but in every gesture there’s a death
at least of that space i left before hollow lop-singed
she’s somewhat set this font huge
my every breath killing air killing lungs dead
emptiness always smells somewhat sour like milk
fonts so juicy so poke robust exploding
i could write this on my blood for you
that your eyes are always impossible but memory
writes my blood on the dark backs of hungry does
at dusk set to wander through our back yard
looking for anything luscious over snow
i wish i could drain your headache from you now
laying across from me papoose in my grandmother quilt
as one generation overlays the next
and i don’t know if your silence is sullen or magic
after those silhouette harbingers of plastered season growth
have sighed back into the forest you close your eyes
and soon your breath rides the back of your mind
it’s the way he does it degrading and obsessed
and to understand my awful moments
when my own chemicals mewl from a blind floor
because all its food is empty
about that time the blessings tingle
crisp ice ivy fluted ruffled
indulging grounds for caffeine enormity
more or less faded nor solipsistic and well-rounded
i wake to see dawn to bake in the office
to watch the blood rake against calm wood panels
mike kapalin texts me about skype
and i’ve gotten affairs in order before work
while we wait for a temperature of positive integers
the clouds stretched over forest ringed mauve ringed cream
these are the mornings my blessings tingle
and am given to convince you how pure you really are
purely the last woman i’ll ever want
i wake and rupture my too-soon improvident brain
cream mike crisp when to my own chemicals a blind panel
of judges arose without noise like corpses drowned
and forgotten
did i also put the allen wrench back into the tool drawer
and want to know what’s in each and every junk drawer
in america
ours has some tools and papers
a fedora live desktop cd
mexican sugar skulls
i wake to see after dawn about lists for walt whitman
who is never too busy to not bother with me
write to me and tell me about your junk drawer
who is never too busy to bother me
because fear is these minutiae will drift downward
from some gold-flecked money-pit skyways
to shower our heads with some comfortable temporary
alleviated viaduct
i promise not to upbraid you over batteries
or their lack
nor will i calcify unencumbered
as a blush shuddering under your pleasure
your pressure
joseph mcelroy refers to himself as prime aged beef
your pressure the temperature
by degrees over sodden blistered cities
in smithereens the blues attack backwards
and in ever-more sordid combinations
their blurt is a ruby for the animals in their burrows
and i winnow light from the willow and weave
i window so near the panel wall
as if on the look-out across ponds of absolute shiver
i dive into silences like my life filtered religion thus
binary tree roots cracking cable gentry and soft
odd fonts
why are there so many batteries i complain
andean heat could sheath pan flute fuel
that breathy droplet note
moves through the doppler thoughtlessly
is what i want
i am constantly inspired by you
but feel perhaps a bit of a bully
these blind cold days the temperature is white
and in the sun-room we use a space heater
i arise intact from a premonition a remembrance
and limp out here to wake and bake
so sure of your love
cannabis lifting my headache
and snotty
wish i knew how much material flames inhaled
exactly
amid these videos of cute baby animals
a crude reference to that lexicon
brushes over a jet of my eyes
surrealism of the primitives
i’m only imitating bad verse
in homage to our culture
i tell you in all irony
smelling of elements
glazed with salads with snow
more formally each line is an inuit
word for it
with which we welcome intuition
and our tutelage in heavenly tropes
lit by a sky aging with no token for time
but can it cure halvard johnson
can i steal screens from the bathroom sink
for my hash pipe
what’s clear is change
rearranges the brain-pan
drop a ton of mary jane
on someone’s head
don’t even have to smoke it that way
where you’ve been up all night and lovely
and collapse eventually we all do
passionless skins retreating sated
upon one another twist and turns
licking labyrinth
i syntax winds that round certain corners
i grip pines with my eyes while rest of winter sulfates
to winter in chautauqua to pin a world shrunk sectional
somebody mostly solid possibly godlike
slipping over ridges or vapor in rapture
i wish i could convey to you apocalypse lollipop
and in moving in arcing arcane with burst flavor
as what’s sweetness my lips plumb with dumb broadens
don’t miss the recap
or spillage
as lavished with extra waking
vanishing below where traced
a paper trail delayed by snow
leaves brush sinking in trepidations
dwindle cautious with resources
you’re at a loss to be present and sentient when she comes
to bring you your check standing in minted puddle
where the snow bent our artificial lights
analyzing the pock of boots their paths
in the booth thorough and sanding down flung rubble
among the rustic yards roaring weeds in bastard flare
now cut under by blizzards
whirled in a parking lot by hills of automobiles
chrome fields chrome fields chrome fields
the mess of reclamation papering prisms
runts that erode wimpled and asphyxiated
epidermally
i’m pent and heading to the devil
a bag of electric electoral surgery
the jaw what crumbling haw haw haw
murky with geegaws and elements of pee-paw
reach for taut gossip to sour goggles
to burnished filaments what make up drying days
talk to mom for an hour over computer
a slew of thoughts gust and mistrustful of attentions
when spent on making corn pop what some call
early afternoon
there’s such winter storm this way comes we
shop quickly yesterday to maybe hole up
and enjoy put into wine racks lining quaint cellars
don’t burl below saw-tooth paved with meaning
can labor aimlessly for an hour on specifications
as so what comes to us doing your bidding
has smoked for some lift
and somehow above man’s animal but in
love veil took off his glasses because of fog
becoming more and less disorganized as gliding does
you’ve got such a tight viewpoint on males because
you’ve studied them all but not me just yet
is in some way forgetting how to write a poem good
i could sit still too watching trains enter and depart
as long as soft rock is gold drawn ultimately lethal
you reduce us males to swaggering shadows
it ain’t even cool for me to sound cocky anymore he says
sometimes
we’ve come up on the other side of the ridge now
i wish i could get you onto understanding paradox
and how i can be sex and afraid of touch
sometimes
and how if you look long enough at it and it
shows its belly to you over in a snort
the magnification
can drive you batshit
like remembering society’s outside
circle lured into circumnavigation
i solemnize long costs of sojourns in diuretic
the temperature pre-empts
sexually
that drop on your cleavage
thrives me batshit all the time
now i know we stay in our garden you’re restless
because winter’s locked our doors and cicadas
season deep beneath us
someday i’ll understand good poems
i’ll fade like the pan you say from eyes of god
sweeping across me walking your ice cream
back to the buick roadmaster
i smoke two of a smoking blend
coal aloof along in pipe bowl hots
sodden with oriole riot gear
insert here the name of that bird
and his identical friend
what ate your seed bell up its rope
what age gradient actually likes it
costumes
as like the consummate canadian ross priddle
scanned into your database
i like what our tools tell us
that if this heat troubled by space
then you’re sleeping i can hear your waves
rustling through the bedroom
don’t wanna mark up your literary jambs
but these preserves crusted over there in a bleep
keep me hangin’ on
the precipice slips through me
where are the dead eating trances
on truant flickers
what have you done harmony korine
the drones fly over afghan winds
you’re stapling unique chapbooks in your office
while i read franz boas without glasses
the mind of primitive man on a ghost of food
a ghost of sophistry a ghost of syntactic erosion
sensing a love god in decay
roadkill hearts roadkill hearts
the lord thy god they ether reading boats
either an edge or marquee
my son my son
what dark at the inside throat
coated with tin vehicle elided in paradise
don’t come in here sexually you request
rough consequences in scuttle seasons
force your forge with molten door
forks roar penny-whistle shtick
sucked up in cousin ugliness gleam-drilled
i have some
swapping out gifs
drunk on what poison ice embeds
he got up to make himself a gin and tonic
but instead sat back down with whiskey
content to lick your wind
a table just under a love-sized book
is contemptibly metered by embers
and also a meaning-song
i got fucked up earlier by two
of smoking blended
eggs him on
the yolk and the lore
or you overdose on bali kratom
until nausea opens your body
leaving it dirty fondly moaning
while you sleep
i sprinkle green powder on my stone pipe
after midnight just clean clothes strewn
strong rupture our departure scissoring
you snap straw necks of piglets detached in dreams
drenched in restlessness i smell your flesh sweet
frontal blown drowned ignored
rocks scald our thoughts fucked up easter
eating as soon as we could bear to again
your usury usually ices flavor sessions
i love to vapor origami packets hashed empty
sad for lack of advertisements perhaps
earlier than you would wake all stung
after pineal liaisons grow elastic like bears
who never stop prowling the ridge looking
for berries for ghosts for what’s soaked here
in memories you and i try to touch you run
your fingers along the contours of a cut-out fish
from thin wood and think about what it’s like
to grow up here
where now spring first whispers
husky ridged gentle rusting
tracing which way flame tends
i’ve never more wanted everything thawed
there’s some copious undertaking to it
of coupling below the coffin nails
hot and bleeding from every sight
through no asphalt
no sanitation just where twenty percent
folds into the patient clock mocking minutes
o potency of entrenched christians
o ptomaine o pantomime fecundity
you asked for no trains birthing husks of songs
and i got something daylight space heater
at the end of the cycle crying became illegal
and saving money on titanic drifting
breaking drifting drifting breaking
when the stitches came out
we could let letters into the body
make bootie calls on childhood’s toy phone
without a card
last night to see the trees’ shadows on
dribbling snow was strange
it’s waving like it’s missed the ocean
down along the mellow gentleman’s inseam is
where trees print over sky
some unmitigated blue
grinning as mescaline enables blanket color
bland citric bishop-driven and candied
the cities drip with cradle wax-wing of past full moons
i would moan with you here with your mouth electrocuting
eloquent devils
elk celebrate receding ice via acid light
while the wind strangely knocks
disrobing was standard
how come you never answer my questions
about the missing oceans the genuine recluse
eulogies we mouth into verklempt sneezes
as rusted as these hushed hints of spring
sir you crack like smiling drifting finished on sunset bay
if only i could not cooperate with you
and for a few days make like the words
had different meanings
the particulars of my code would not parse
and across the whole plateau humanity
i could jut like a solid run of encryption
just jut like a solid
jut jut like a solid
everything you’ve ever lost at your fingers
is here in this setting sun room after you leave
and i swallow bitter san pedro tea
to go out walking in the woods alone
as the clouds settle over what’s left of the thaw
with snow washed away and sudden new freezing
the grass in patches worn to steel
like teeth wear on flesh as you bite through my arm
to bite through yourself ventured just beyond the solid
vines slung in meaningless arcs over trees
red sprouting swing thick hair strung out
after you leave i go through the forest
looking for whatever endures in me
and knowing it’s exactly what dies
in ice somewhere close five-fingered paws
sprawl across where softness folds
even at this altitude when i try to deny you
the trees flung above me swaying moaning
and so much has come down
the trail to the pond disappears when there’s no
undergrowth
but of course the snow returns
burning our brown our green escarpment
since he threatens my sense of well-being
he ended up in my dream
and all the long cold winter i’m barefoot
swishing around the house in my fleece robe
all the long cold winter i crack open benzedrex
inhalers and scissor the lavender cotton
so we’re cleaning house on holiday monday
moaning next to you in our bed
while you rub my body to a burnished explosive
o the coherency of these simultaneous campfire ridges
less than near us in the forest shrouded safe
from humans
propylhexedrine gentry on language just beyond
my fingertips gray frail brittle as ashy paper
dropping words in wet round piles on dead leaves
deer fumets everywhere on our mild mescaline walk
thus i tune my nervous system to comprehend
the cries of trees shadowed by piled ice
i tune my nervous system to porous viscosity
and the slanted sun shrieks of winter flood through
i true my nerves isthmus to ply the tribe
and lay below the water lillies like ophelia
when monet gnashed his teeth in amphetamine fits
when john cage quieted the concert hall in shapes
of what sounds drift turning bass over hills
they said you live longer in cities
on paper the winter trails through february’s acrid blur
you’re sorting and putting away our wash
and i’m washing and drying out dishes
last night i dreamed that mary and the kids
wouldn’t understand my happiness just pushed me
over with their hate
the whole time spinning themselves deeper into graves
i know i’m writing too fast for any sort of quality
but my life’s going by blue and flaming
and this is just a possible sketch of it
hello world my name is lewis
i lived past the twentieth century
and on into the next
and these days everyone’s excited for the end
but mescaline and dmt taught me the structure
of what’s eternal
and it isn’t these thoughts either
or this form typing into an obsolete computer
to write to databases impossible to pinpoint
i found my love in new york state
and she’s more a home to me than anywhere’s ever been
don’t get sentimental lewis
and break your hard verse down to dribble
you want to embrace the world today
bear-hug the chautauqua ridge
as it steps down into lake erie
stepping off from the lip of that darkness
into what mouth what
sleep you wind over yourself dear papoose
dear hill of wonders of wounds stolen
i have only words to offer you and not intellect
we hurt each other too
you ask if i’m an abuser and i say no
i definitely know i’m not an abuser
i choked a girl once in ohio once only
because she had me cornered she was hitting me
with words with fists with her frustrated life
and the minute my hands closed her throat i relaxed
and let her choke me
now i push fire to lion tail flowers
swallow kratom
to lion tail flowers orange germinating murals
the frieze of eliipses and seasonal havoc
sleep my papoose love away from tangles
as i sleep standing up or sitting down to type
you have your letters to write to other men
in sunshine rooms for sure but here i wait winter storm
watch fog gossip the ridge grinned at us soggy
in a way where the veil tore stones thrown through
enough of us to stagger on up the hill whistling the wind
through us through stones
they taste nutty with a blue afterlife
and so i float out to the sunroom where you’ve composed a banjo
the edges of my head have dissolved and words struggle out
from out form outward from water owls
at 3am we’re inoculating the substrate we’re innocent again
from out of form the stones nutty with tasted afterwards blue
with ascension from session problems to mail server misconfigurations
simply put lines in front of lines on out lines in lines
i can’t lie about psychedelic experiences though i can’t stand
so eager to thaw lawlessly engaged in bright castle trails
the thrall of just edging into march julia your banjo grotto
cracked vocals pitched high along escarpment toggled
i tasted something blue in my teeth just then
through stones which we stagger up the hill whistling
songs yet to be composed on banjo with fruited tars
the jars the jaws the sexual organ of mycelium rustic
the psilocybin assumes you rule like heavy metal exportation
i exported it to the public file
have you got the whole thing as an aup
engaged with trees
spring ringed with songs nudged by file lifting
by fires ripping eyes up daisy changing your shirt
or your pants
have a certain hit song stuck in them
protruding roughly toothy soothsayer trails
trolls on trails on tails of trolls the atoll the highway
thruway
the thruway
usually rude trees wet with ash arms
durable like wild fire
like so much sexual spoor-age you say
this white and this black or this dark or this light
slight sleight sleuth slushing mustard-colored rolls
an hour later he’s got a beat going through him with whispers
the wish we should have verbiage the verve
the curl in the essence is somewhat candy
now i dissolve now i no longer pose solutions
forming unforming forming unforming there’s no such word
i have this amazing yard
every cell of which chisels silt
grinning the sadness mergers
remember the brain we had
folks with magic toes with trolls trails folds
i wanted to convey to you the middled of chords
the colored land where tones scored our bodies
and heard in there them cold finger shutters
old gods with chaos flesh and the fields they walk
over our bones and the middle of those sounds
this is old old old old
magic i heard whispered in a dream i was a stone
and as such i had no anxiety and nothing to fear
i was eternal like all stones
swollen like an energy gentle and recursive
i could curl like rolls of magic truffle bitter tongue
while outside your whole world winded and wilts
your engines churning a leaf-rotted ground
as you stand before the holy forest
talking to your imaginary documentation
as we drift over a simulated dusk
even so i dream about feldspar half-awake
elfin blur on gelding setbacks patrol all lords
all swollen color rolls antiquate adequate estimations
the time trilling behind your eyes
the time filtered and let loose in blood
i heard this whispered in a dream i dream of stones
and somewhere between this word and the next propane delivery
woke me you said with ball-clenching terror
you said i get up to go meet the door bang
behind which was i saw time splitting us into mined pleas
a small amount of peas with some vinegar
feel that dog creeping up on big bright flame flakes
and a streak of whitsuntide cat
do i look like i have a fucking clue broheim
i would love to vernacular unclearly
the vermiculite culled from love’s panzer
wistful like failure’s basic bone structure
it seems even darker just over my shoulder
where you dip your finger into my chest
and pull out all that sticky information
the dog sniffs it realistically
and even i growl nostalgic
remembering the nape of your neck peppered with
amber and listless old mothering thumbs
which perched on my thirstily rusting my form
poisoned by fishing lured out from metallic trunks
bordering on fog
why bother the dog
if the ground still reels out from under you on the porch
and approaching apogee the survivors dislodge
god could even a geode cuspid aye cursed
the certainty of correct spellining to put me in my place
in the forest where rain whitens jets of spangled teeth
i gnaw on astonishment until it’s just awful
and each grinding flaw i imbue with grunts
confides somewhat in me
and conflicting incidents incinerate as per usual
i have some copious insight to offer on this topic right here
i grope you in your sleep while i should sleep but can’t because of mind
always and everywhere error-checking and throwing exceptions
back into the face of my master
this monster trucking onward fucks me blind
as if a sliver of sobriety cleans my stink of body
my stench of carelessness the stencils the ball-point
where yesterday our yard browned and dipped
today rain is crispy
the snow can just barely cover our faces where you sleep
and where the limb i’ve always used to climb out of myself
misses those phantoms selling fireworks on baby’s grand
i drop a hit straggle in honest dollar-store temporary relief
emptiness is also a prelude to lucid flavors
where yesterday i starred in your psilocybin films
today’s gray neighborhoods tuck monsters beneath the walk
i have for you some insight into coping with it
when everyone on the planet waits for a disaster of full moon
3267 successful tranfsers later
a monster snuck out of my raybans to gobble errant socks
so you’ll think it’s probably your electric dryer
but why not electric rain electrician stalemate
i don’t give a damn about quality anymore
than you do selling lesions from your demon dreams of feldspar
elk prowl lots abandoned by cars
sustaining aggravated mendacity in tactile night
you oh you untangle 16mm home films
from someone else’s family vacations
while i wait for the domain names to propagate
throughout this invisible network
it has the consistency of mushroom flesh
and remains maintained by suspicious deer
along the ridge here last night’s snow vanishes
leaving both you and i living on flattened grass
my head opens to both of us shadows
dashingly complex draped over able lawn
its surreal to walk outside without a jacket
and the whole world’s rusted running
but the cat’s been pissing in the mud room i think
and you’re listening to swamp pop
i wonder what it is
that i’m here and entering text
for when i’m a dead one and the living ones
visit lilies drafting bridges over my grave
our psilocybin wasn’t in the mailbox today
and yeah of course i miss that god-thrum
of blue earth ululation
to compensate i swallow eight
kratom capsules with a sparse gulp
of whole milk
in our bedroom closet i’m growing cannabis seedlings
and the grow light spills cool hopeful deluge
alluvial and gigantic
now with an extra hour of daylight
the country music plays soft
the bands of blue snow over against the barn
i cannot be displayed i have errors
in my train of thought lately elephants
prowl the moon-rinsed ridge alert for meat
our poor dog alerts us to doors
clogged with salts awash in sour whims
to hide the growing closet with mercury greens
foraging out all night on the moon-cruel limbs
a cake you whitened to peaks your belly exposed
fully warm now that the grass is vicious
one could mistake that dour visage for disapproval
while i lay convalescing from quakes from vision
the sieve through which my thinking slips
kissed you before ambling to this bedroom
cannot be displayed now i have eros
just under my skin swiftly evolved clouds
love where love was loving in vowel and dresses
a caress careless heirloom protrudes
aloof from conversation in upper registers gestured mostly
mostly i hope you don’t think i’m too cool for love
as in the distance i hear distaff velvets remember
me to your groans while over the bowl i punch myself
trying to vomit the idea of my body out of my body
i told you it was all tautology remember
a false spring you swung over cold mud and told me
how you thought the sex of sun and moon and we kids
down here aloud in our jam of trails
engendered by cycles of light and cells
i expand and dilate and am obligated to mist
i allow these spook troopers to gallop through my body
which will lay next to you even when i’m gone
i remember this as living gods speaking color ethics
when i shut my eye wrenched slow drain through think
it over
that’s why i’m leaving it
up to you
2010.11.27--2011.03.20