5/11/2011
Home, sweet home! By:Teymur Roshdi Smashwords Edition Copyright2011-Teymur Roshdi
...In the previous story 'A Dream', I told that I found myself on the soil of an unknown planet of a far galaxy, also I said that I was withnessing the extinction of the Earth. Was this place my home? Was this soil a material one made up of stones and rocks? At my astonishment I noticed that I lost my human shape and body, I have became shapeless, totaly amorphous. I had no digestive tube, no sexual organs, no veins, no blood, no feet to walk or wings to fly, so what I was?I realized that I was just a sort of consciousness, an immaterial 'mind' full of all sort of memories. And that was what I became. Did I regret it? Not at all. Did I rejoice it? Slightly! A very moderate joy of being, thinking , existing and having almost all sort of informations, the joy of being intelligent.
Maybe since the beginning I pertained to this planet and have been on Earth by some mistake, maybe this was the reason that I never felt myself at home on Earth. During my existence and life on earth, I always had the feeling of being a stranger, a foreigner, someone of another stuff. Everyone could notice that ,
since my childhood until my teleportation, people considered me a bit different, some liked me because I was strange and some others disliked me because I didn't fit their expectations. Anyway it was over and nothing mattered anymore, because I considered the earth and everything within a lost cause.
I did a sort of introspection and didn't find any of the human emotions: no desire, no greed, not hatred , no anger , except one which was still puzzling me:love! How I felt this? By the emptiness in my soul as if it was searching to be filled for being complete. I remembered my parents, they were the only ones I ever loved and they were the only ones who loved me as I was, unconditionally. How could I find them and where? Was my love for them quite enough to launch myself in such an endeavour? In all case this was the only stimulation I had to fulfill my 'mission' of becoming complete and this was my only goal, at least I felt so.
I realized that although everything vanished but 'love' remained intact in my consciousness and I wondered what was the origin of this emotion. Where was the source of 'love', this unselfishness, sacrificial feeling which was acting like a magnet to attract the ones I ever loved more than myself? Maybe my parents
either didn't belong to earth , maybe they were also from another planet and maybe this was the reason of this irradicable attraction.
The 'darkness' around me was not an obstacle because I could see all celestial bodies, the moving and the 'stable' ones. Seeing and feeling were the abilities I had, because I couldn't touch the soil or the stones I was observing, I had just the idea that this was a planet of stones and rocks but with no more evidence. Then I thought that maybe I was not alone there, maybe some other 'consciousnesses' were present under a sort of camouflage. Anyway the 'planet' was friendly to me because it accepted me as a guest , without harming me or even threating me. Then I thought that maybe with the 'tool' I had, I mean my eagerness and love for my parents, I could send some 'signals' to alert them and to inform them of my presence. What a fabulous perspective of finding my dearest ones and remain with them forever eternally.
Apparently the idea of 'signals' worked, because appeared in front of me something irradiant projecting in pulses multicolour rays like rainbow. It has no definite shape but was moving like a microscopic cell and nothing letted me know that it was material and I guessed that it was somehow a dimension. I have been attracted by it and joined it and became part of it. Suddenly a mirror appeared and everything was shining and I could see myself on the mirror. I recognized myself, that was 'me' as I was on earth but much more better. I felt the presence of some immaterial 'minds' and then heard a voice in polyphony which welcomed me. As if they all knew all my questions, they explained:"we are all the ones who suffered too much and loved too much and we have been honoured by the privilege of 'being' and 'existing' forever to enjoy the real life. Your parents are happy and living on another planet because they suffered much more than the others and loved much more too, so they live somewhere appropriete to let them forget all the sorrow and to adapt themselves with the eternal joy of being and loving. You won't disturb their peace because they are searching for you and you need to join each other to become complete, because when you need, you are not yet complete.
"The ones who come here or elsewhere shouldn't need or long for someone or something, they have to be complete. The whole universe is of the stuff of 'love' and when you love or are with the loved ones you are complete, so you have to join them and in this amorphous dimension we will bring you there".
The mirror disappeared and I felt myself the same shapeless consciousness. The assembly of those 'beings' added: "nothing of what you see, the planets, the stars, the galaxies are real, they are just an illusion of the same stuff of your dreams on earth, and the expansion of the 'universe' is an illusion too and once you join the 'Source', it would shrink. The Source is the only reality and in it, the illusion of the universe would disappear and you will live forever in an eternal felicity".
In a wink with the assembly of those 'beings' I found myself in a very bright scenery where everything was irradiant and I felt an incredible joy above all my imagination , because I felt my parents who entered in 'the dimension'. The mirror appeared and I recognized my parents with their usual shape on earth. They said:"sweetheart, we were looking for you". I embraced them and I felt a
warmth, an indescribable warmth which filled the emptiness of my soul. No more words and we became a unique entity, happy, joyful and complete.
Still in the 'dimension', we joined the Source and I felt the everlasting felicity. The planets, stars and galaxies or the universe disappeared, in fact they were just an illusion and never 'existed'. The only 'reality', the only 'existence' was The Source.
5/11/2011